hyenahell

sometimes i look at her pictures, and think, "how is it possible that she is dead?"...

sometimes i forget that she's gone. i have dreams that she's back, for keeps... then i wake up. i see her, i talk to her, but she's not here. not really.

and it seems like she could still walk through the door somehow. any minute now...

it seems like it could still be just a bad dream. just a mistake.

a year and a half and it still isn't real.

i wonder if it ever will be...