hyenahell

i think that if i could, i would like to sleep forever.

i had some kind of suicidegirls-related dream. there was an SG magazine. and a contest of some sort. the only "real" SG's i remember from the dream were Voltaire and NIc. somehow, it was also about art. or at least my lack of any productive work to that effect. i've been in this horrible rut where i can't work. or haven't worked. just don't feel it. so this carried over to the dream. i remember a motif of lime green and blood red. an image i can't quite call back from memory. an overbearingly urgent sense.

so. then.
it is ten o'clock in the morning; i wish i could go back to sleep. not really for the dreaming... but for those moments right before falling asleep, or right after waking up... when your bed is the most comfortable place in the world, and your mind is hazy, drifting.

in any case. my family leaves tomorrow. i will write more then. looks like i am going to start working again. i am hoping, as in about a week i am going to have to pay rent... somehow.

-Hyena.