hydra

I just went through a blackout. 24 hours of heat, no light, no hair straightener, no internet. it sort of sucked and got boring...but then i went and saw pirates of the caribbean 2 and that was rad.

then i came home to my parents house. where i was fine.

but i started listening to some music and i started to feel that tug on my heart.

i want nothing but to stay strong, but i'm slowly creeping into a depression.

i just want school to be back. i want to sleep away the whole summer. i hate this whole situation. i want him back and it hurts because i can't have it. but he's so great still, we're awesome friends, but i want to reach out and touch him, kiss him.

i sucks.

i just want to sleep for weeks and weeks on end...

my mood fluctuates too much and i can't handle it.

i think the period is coming.

nobody needs nobody after all.

Just a quick update. I got really emotional last night... I've just got to be strong. I'm quitting my job and finding something more in my area now. I can't go back, I need a complete change-around of my life or I'll be stuck in this cold updraft of sadness I keep feeling on the crack of my ass.