holy moly.! i havent been on here in AGES.! Forgot how much I loved seeing all the beautiful shoots and catching up on peoples blogs...
the holiday period has been good to me though - good food, good drink, good company and blinding sales.! knew that last minute shopping was a good idea.!
not got any plans for new year though - thinking of just popping down the local then back to a mates - always such an anticlimax anyway..
as for anything more interesting than the mundane.. well, there is one thing.. I havent had sex now for a REALLY long time - I mean REALLY LONG!! I've had opportunity to, and pretty sure I could have it whenever I want, and not even with random strangers, with people who care about me - mates - but I know they'd jump at the chance if offered.. and yet it seems to hold no interest with me at the moment.. I think that I think too deeply about things - about where things will lead, what will happen further down the line and if I see it ultimately being pointless then I refuse to let it begin in the first place.
Should I just forget these concerns and give in to one of my pursuers, or maybe thats it - maybe I like having a number of men pursuing me, but dont want to be laboured with the guilt of 'cheating' on any of them - even though i'm not really having a relationship with any of them..
oh, and to update on my last blog - many moons ago - I never went through with the photo shoot as was worried about where the photos would end up - or what he would use them for to be more precise. He asked me to join in a threesome with him and his wife..
Oh, I declined by the way x
the holiday period has been good to me though - good food, good drink, good company and blinding sales.! knew that last minute shopping was a good idea.!
not got any plans for new year though - thinking of just popping down the local then back to a mates - always such an anticlimax anyway..
as for anything more interesting than the mundane.. well, there is one thing.. I havent had sex now for a REALLY long time - I mean REALLY LONG!! I've had opportunity to, and pretty sure I could have it whenever I want, and not even with random strangers, with people who care about me - mates - but I know they'd jump at the chance if offered.. and yet it seems to hold no interest with me at the moment.. I think that I think too deeply about things - about where things will lead, what will happen further down the line and if I see it ultimately being pointless then I refuse to let it begin in the first place.
Should I just forget these concerns and give in to one of my pursuers, or maybe thats it - maybe I like having a number of men pursuing me, but dont want to be laboured with the guilt of 'cheating' on any of them - even though i'm not really having a relationship with any of them..
oh, and to update on my last blog - many moons ago - I never went through with the photo shoot as was worried about where the photos would end up - or what he would use them for to be more precise. He asked me to join in a threesome with him and his wife..
Oh, I declined by the way x
darkriver:
Buy a toy to relieve your "pressure", and keep your friends. Was the threesome thing the reason he wanted to do your shoot? Thats kind of fucked up!
darkriver:
I could see how you could, you know, have a guy any time, but I'm happy with how you handle things. Very noble! I had one of those "we're just friends" fucks that turned into a three month nightmare! She promises she would still be cool with being friends, and then she starts getting pissed at me for talking to other girls! (the whole thing was her idea in the first place!!!) so i promised myself never to do it again. Now a one night stand, or a holiday fling are something totally different!!! Weren't you planning a trip to Chicago? 
Just kidding! 
Just kidding!