hunginn

I'm just sitting here, staring at the screen, and thinking of what to write. Maybe I should go back to posting this junk at 2am, like in "the good ol' days," but I don't think it would matter. I feel really tired right now, and I don't know why. I haven't done anything strenuous today, and I slept relatively well, for me. It's possible that I'm just mistaking my mental fatigue for physical fatigue. Yeah, my mind has felt drained lately. I think the cause of it is that I'm a little too... alone. Not the ephemeral kind of alone, but the realization that there's just no one left to really turn to and let it all out. I guess that's why I'm doing it here. I'm not fishing for cyberhugs or pep talks or anything, but this has to be said to someone, even if it's just myself. If a few other people happen to catch it, good for them. They can read whatever thought I throw here and have a grand old time.

On a more positive note, I feel the need to point out the greatness of such lovely people as Dia and Violet. They've hung out in the chat room and talked to me a few times, and there are some points when that really makes my day. I have a lot of respect for them, they'rve achieved a celebrity status in my eyes, and it's nice that they're able to alleviate some of the loneliness that they probably don't even know about. That may sounds anywhere from kinda lame to really creepy, but I've written this much already, so there's not much point in holding back now. I may make it sound like I'm a complete loser or what have you, but... oh well. I just wanted to say something for once, though it's likely I'll regret it by tomorrow. So ends the incoherent rambling.