oh baby, i want to touch your tightly coiled viscera.
today was a really good day. trent launched his rocket! he got it in the kids department of wal-mart and it is actually called the SCREW MACHINE. it went up really high! we all got scared and ran but there was a parachute and the thing floated to earth just like mary poppins, if she was explosive.
made up with allison and, by comparison, realized how much life had sucked without her in it. watched sex and the city a lot then wrote her creepy short short.
i am amazed how okay even good i feel right now, its making me wonder if i should stay after all but i know moving is the best thing. wish i did not have to because i love living with tristram sometimes. what a great guy. what great people all my friends are! i am so happy to have them in my life, even though relationships are impermanent and that can be frightening, we should enjoy them while they last.
it's evident i am feeling better i guess. my school appointed shrinky guy has helped a lot and also talking to allison helped things. why do i always underestimate the power of confrontation over passive aggression?
i'm supposed to be writing about what i fear the most. spiders, weddings, being alone, and getting pregnant were some of my ideas but i am going with dead fathers. i have an idea but i am NOT WRITING about it because I SKIRT THE DEADLINES BABY.
now i need to take a lot of no doz and stay up and NOT WRITE some more!
today was a really good day. trent launched his rocket! he got it in the kids department of wal-mart and it is actually called the SCREW MACHINE. it went up really high! we all got scared and ran but there was a parachute and the thing floated to earth just like mary poppins, if she was explosive.
made up with allison and, by comparison, realized how much life had sucked without her in it. watched sex and the city a lot then wrote her creepy short short.
i am amazed how okay even good i feel right now, its making me wonder if i should stay after all but i know moving is the best thing. wish i did not have to because i love living with tristram sometimes. what a great guy. what great people all my friends are! i am so happy to have them in my life, even though relationships are impermanent and that can be frightening, we should enjoy them while they last.
it's evident i am feeling better i guess. my school appointed shrinky guy has helped a lot and also talking to allison helped things. why do i always underestimate the power of confrontation over passive aggression?
i'm supposed to be writing about what i fear the most. spiders, weddings, being alone, and getting pregnant were some of my ideas but i am going with dead fathers. i have an idea but i am NOT WRITING about it because I SKIRT THE DEADLINES BABY.
now i need to take a lot of no doz and stay up and NOT WRITE some more!
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I missed you too, love, and thank you again so so much for helping write my story while shirking your own responsibilities. I know I mentioned this before, but I really was never meaning to ignore you, you did not seem to want to be around me and I did not know how to handle it.
Yay confrontation! We are slowly but surely learning.
You fear weddings? In general or the specific wedding we have discussed in the past?
Thought there was more, but I done forgot it.
Big is John!!!
Later dahling.
The only way to ever fix problems in relationships is to let the other person know what the problem is and try to work through it. As I'm sure you've found out for yourself, keeping it all in sucks. Anyways, enjoy life and I'll leave you with this joke and maybe you'll get a laugh out of it:
There are two blondes, one at either end of a lake.
THe first blonde calls over to the second blonde:
"What's it like on the other side?"
the second blonde calls back:
"You're alreayd ON the other side!"