hugzombie

It's nights like these when I wish I had a car. I want to go out and do things, but I can't. The only way I can ever go out at night is if someone else wants to go. This also includes them picking me up and taking me back home. I feel like such a loser without a car. I'm going to be getting a car for when I move to Ohio, but I want one now. Right now, I want to go out to Streets of London. I want to have a drink, I want to socialize with people. I just get so tired of the fact that I have to depend on other people's whims to go out and have fun. I just want to have control over my social life for once. I want to do the things I want to do, when I want to do them. I wish I didn't have to depend on Ladybug so often for rides and such. I hate public transportation and I just want to be able to go places. I don't get that opportunity anymore. If I want Taco Bell at 2am in the morning, I can't go get it. If I run out of cigarettes before I go to bed, I have to wait until I get on the bus and go to work so I can buy some. I feel so trapped. I know cars are bad for the environment, blah blah blah. Being able to drive, and having a vehicle in which to do so, is so liberating. If I had a car, I wouldn't have to leave my house at 8:20 to get to work by 10:00.