huck1eberry

I feel low.

I just feel lonely and unmotivated. I don't know how to get out of this one. No matter what I try I still feel like shit.

This happens any time the emotional stuff in my life is good. When things are at there best I feel at my worst. Maybe I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I don't know.

I don't have a job. I went to college I did everything I was supposed to do and I don't have shit to show for it. How did I get here. I want to succeed at what I trained to do.

I lack confidence right now.

This isn't anything but getting this shit off my chest. I am never comfortable telling people about how I feel. I told my wife but I don't want to put any pressure on her right now. Especially right now. I love her so much but my mind is full of doubt. It gets this way. I don't know why it just does. She is the reason I am who I am right now. Without her I would be screwed. I love her so.

I can't get motivated my house is a mess due to this. The messier it gets the less motivated I am. I am living in a shit hole right now. I don't get any help. That sucks. I feel if I got a little help things would be better.

I just want to be happy. . .