It seems the all I write about is how alone I am and nobody cares and therapy and the I lash of at dl onto kind enough to be my virtual friends. why should this be any different?
Right now My dad is in the hospital reordering from two catheterization procedures to clear blockages in too arteries. So he is at St. Joe's and I am at my folks place OTP. For anybody that knows, yes I did pack a bag. I' d been being the good son am looking after my mom (both of them are 70). As it had mentioned earlier, my parents are alcoholics. I just her the klink of ice that is consistent with making a drink, in this case a Manhattan. Her third of the night. She is worried.
she also has diabetes, gout, hypertension, arthritis. and am autoimmune disease that kind of resembles non-hodjkins lymphoma. Basicly I am being the nurturing support. A roll that she had not provided to me.
Now I am finding things that I would have liked to do twenty years ago. Isn't that just the way things work. On Saturday I will Se fourty fucking one years old! My girlfriend, wants to know what I want for my birthday. I want to be fixed. I want to not be riddled with emotional trauma. But that is'nt anything that she can purchase.
shifts enough from here. ok citizens, nothing tone here I carry on with what you were doing.
Right now My dad is in the hospital reordering from two catheterization procedures to clear blockages in too arteries. So he is at St. Joe's and I am at my folks place OTP. For anybody that knows, yes I did pack a bag. I' d been being the good son am looking after my mom (both of them are 70). As it had mentioned earlier, my parents are alcoholics. I just her the klink of ice that is consistent with making a drink, in this case a Manhattan. Her third of the night. She is worried.
she also has diabetes, gout, hypertension, arthritis. and am autoimmune disease that kind of resembles non-hodjkins lymphoma. Basicly I am being the nurturing support. A roll that she had not provided to me.
Now I am finding things that I would have liked to do twenty years ago. Isn't that just the way things work. On Saturday I will Se fourty fucking one years old! My girlfriend, wants to know what I want for my birthday. I want to be fixed. I want to not be riddled with emotional trauma. But that is'nt anything that she can purchase.
shifts enough from here. ok citizens, nothing tone here I carry on with what you were doing.
thejuanupsman:
Happy Birthday man. I hope things get better for you.
texax7:
I think about this sometimes as well. I've only seen my parents 1x in 20 years. So I think when they get old enough to need me what will I do. I haven't really decided. I am itrying to figure that out in therapy at this point. Don't worry about turning 40, my b/f is 44 and way hot and awesome. It does suck getting old, but it is also just a number and time is a human construct. I think loneliness is part of Western clinvilazation delimma. 