I am going to qualify this entry as the bit of exposition that will kill any chance of hooking up with anybody here.
my voice is just coming back. I spent the bulk of ther weekend being angry and frustrated.
A woman at work had showed some interest in seeing me outside of work. I was not going to pursue it without informing my partner. She (partner) has been sick and depressed on and off for the last couple of weeks. Another thing about me is that if I am in an emotionally stressful situation I tend to freeze (a condition controlled by the parasympethetic nervous system that is related to fight and flight response) and exibit behavior consistant with asperger's syndrom ( a high level form of autism) as a defense mechanism. So informing her and answering the subsequent questions were awkword and a little embarassing while we were sitting at brunch. So the rest of the day I could do nothing but stew and finish the second book I had picked up in 10 years. After brunch she went to her house and I went to mine. So when she was over doing housework, she called me to get dinner (japanese noodles, tofu, and pickles) I stewed mostly when I was acquired the aforementioned dinner. So when I got t her house all I could do was tell her how unfair she had been during brunch and how I felt about her answers. The only method I could communicate was yelling at the top of my lungs what I had to say. I know what the ladies are thinking, but it was yelling or breaking things it's not blind rage after all. Just lots of regular rage. (and that's punk rock, oi!)
I am just so fucking tired of being the culmination all of my parents mistakes and neglect.
fuck!
my voice is just coming back. I spent the bulk of ther weekend being angry and frustrated.
A woman at work had showed some interest in seeing me outside of work. I was not going to pursue it without informing my partner. She (partner) has been sick and depressed on and off for the last couple of weeks. Another thing about me is that if I am in an emotionally stressful situation I tend to freeze (a condition controlled by the parasympethetic nervous system that is related to fight and flight response) and exibit behavior consistant with asperger's syndrom ( a high level form of autism) as a defense mechanism. So informing her and answering the subsequent questions were awkword and a little embarassing while we were sitting at brunch. So the rest of the day I could do nothing but stew and finish the second book I had picked up in 10 years. After brunch she went to her house and I went to mine. So when she was over doing housework, she called me to get dinner (japanese noodles, tofu, and pickles) I stewed mostly when I was acquired the aforementioned dinner. So when I got t her house all I could do was tell her how unfair she had been during brunch and how I felt about her answers. The only method I could communicate was yelling at the top of my lungs what I had to say. I know what the ladies are thinking, but it was yelling or breaking things it's not blind rage after all. Just lots of regular rage. (and that's punk rock, oi!)
I am just so fucking tired of being the culmination all of my parents mistakes and neglect.
fuck!