hotpinkauras

I a m laptopless! update! i captured one of the rats, its definately a rat and not a mouse....i am totally and officially grossed out now. my landlord told me to throw it away, are you crazy....i got evidence now, LMAO!

As stated, I was on the brink of discovering that my new laptop is a peice of shit...

Anyway, Im thinking of returniing it, i have until the end of the day to decide. It s been 650$ worth of a headache...my bf and i even had a real disagreement during this time bc of my weepy frustration with this computer and the router he purchased.

aanyway....my friend called and she never mentioned anything and neither did I. I will forgive but I will not be as generous as I have been inn the past. In fact, money will never be a part of our frendship again...for anyone who has any doubt that i am a generous soul and that some friends can be trusted:.i once saved 700$, had no idea why, I gave it to my bf to hold onto. The money was marked bc of my lack of trust in him, and my awe that I gave him, a man i had only known for 4 months, 700$ of my cash to hold onto.

A friend calls, in major trouble and needs me to bail her out of a racist ugly community, that has in recent months been the center of news. The point is this, he did not let me down, by stealing my $, and i gave 500$ of my saved money to help her. I was her friend and advocate. He proved, my bf, a year and a half later to be my friend and advocate. So I know there is a fine line between friendship with expectations, and that without!

When I am a advocate it is business. But the freind in me will never die...I have no family other than my children, so with that said my friends are everything to me. I only expect honesty from them, is that too much to hope for! After all it is worth more to me than gold, jewels, or even $.

My friend and I will still be friends but I still look at her a little differently now, after all I have seen the best in humanity and the worst.
without passing judgement, i can only offer forgiveness....never bite the hand that feeds you