hotpinkauras

ok--enough with the depressing ****! Somewhere in the early morning I had a revelation, so with that said. i have decided that this depression was not just my depression, which was merely minor, but the depression of others. i do energy work, and sometimes i forget to ground myself properly. (my caps dont work)

So last night as i was doing dishes I began to realize after some time i was standing in a puddle of water. i thought i just spilled some on the floor. well i went to walk into the bathroom, and it was like, how the people in the 3rd class must have felt when they stepped into the water on the floor of the titanic. it was cold, it was flowing like niagra Falls from my toilet bowl. it was flowing so fast it seeped into my hall carpet, it made me realize in a small fraction of a way what people the who have gone through floods and hurricanes must feel at that first moment when you see the water...

The worst is that it stinks so badly now. my landlord is not even offering to replace the carpet. my kids and i are extremely sensitive to mold
.......so with that said i go vacuum up more water...and contemplate getting a buzz on...



A Day to mourn and lament

I tried so hard to please you, but that was not good enough.
I loved you with my heart and soul, and gave you perfect trust.
I wish, that you felt the same way that i do...it was never about you being with someone new...only that you grew distant as time continued to move on, and day by day, your interest in me was gone., just like the night, just before dawn.
You tell me that you love me, in your very own special way, but now you seem to be at a loss for words about what you need to say.

I have shed too many tears and wasted so much time on my fears, for so many years, and now I lament over this song, while the hour grows long...and here sits this love like I have never felt before, and now you have decided to just close the door...