Ok, I have always kept my distance and my heart to myself to avoid getting hurt. I have been litterally bitten by this love, and now that he has another gf, and i see that i am not it anymore, I took it more personal than I had imagined I would.
Every year a bunch of horrible things happen to me at once, and karma had reversed for awhile, things were so wonderful and beautiful . I left a 9 yr abusive relationship. I have 2 autistic sons, with special abilities, we'll call them "indigo". I have 2 daughters also who have great gifts to offer the world. i am blessed in so many ways. I know i might lose my job of 13.59 an hour. I know that my bf isnt "in love with me".I know he has another gf. i know I have problems
I know I don't have a car. I know I have fybromyalgia and a thyroid condition. I know that i am sex starved.
The depression hit me like a tsunami. I practice reiki. I do hypnosis. I do aromatherapy, EFR. I am the most positive person I know, at leasdt for the last 15 months. Intent, that is the key. I see this now, so with that said...I leave with these thought(s)
I intend not to lose my job.
I intend to fall out of love.
I intend to find someone.
I intend to get a car.
I intend to lose my physical ailments.
I intend to have sex, again
Here is a poem about sex, lust, orgasim:
A sensual kiss like Eden's bliss...I quiver under your divine touch, feling loved so much...our souls embrace, and while you caress my face...you tempt me with this luxurious lust, burning me up with desire, your pressing manhood, never tires...while we thrust...you delight...
always making me climb higher and higher, reaching new heights, this is your art, your gift, your passion at play, oh my god, it is only you who cn make me feel this way.
While your fingers explore, I feel loved even more, and as you enter my secret place, my legs tremble; my heart begins to race. You are the most beautiful lover and all that you do is like a treasure;undiscovered.
My heart is like an ocean, so full of devotion, at times it is so hard to control this emotion...Intimacy and ecstacy from silken touch has brought me heaven on earth and perfect trust, this is karma, this is just...loving you, I must.
O kay, so now that I am horney and depressed. I am going to go take a cold shower and eat some chocolate.
peace and love to all of you 
Every year a bunch of horrible things happen to me at once, and karma had reversed for awhile, things were so wonderful and beautiful . I left a 9 yr abusive relationship. I have 2 autistic sons, with special abilities, we'll call them "indigo". I have 2 daughters also who have great gifts to offer the world. i am blessed in so many ways. I know i might lose my job of 13.59 an hour. I know that my bf isnt "in love with me".I know he has another gf. i know I have problems
I know I don't have a car. I know I have fybromyalgia and a thyroid condition. I know that i am sex starved.
The depression hit me like a tsunami. I practice reiki. I do hypnosis. I do aromatherapy, EFR. I am the most positive person I know, at leasdt for the last 15 months. Intent, that is the key. I see this now, so with that said...I leave with these thought(s)
I intend not to lose my job.
I intend to fall out of love.
I intend to find someone.
I intend to get a car.
I intend to lose my physical ailments.
I intend to have sex, again
Here is a poem about sex, lust, orgasim:
A sensual kiss like Eden's bliss...I quiver under your divine touch, feling loved so much...our souls embrace, and while you caress my face...you tempt me with this luxurious lust, burning me up with desire, your pressing manhood, never tires...while we thrust...you delight...
always making me climb higher and higher, reaching new heights, this is your art, your gift, your passion at play, oh my god, it is only you who cn make me feel this way.
While your fingers explore, I feel loved even more, and as you enter my secret place, my legs tremble; my heart begins to race. You are the most beautiful lover and all that you do is like a treasure;undiscovered.
My heart is like an ocean, so full of devotion, at times it is so hard to control this emotion...Intimacy and ecstacy from silken touch has brought me heaven on earth and perfect trust, this is karma, this is just...loving you, I must.
O kay, so now that I am horney and depressed. I am going to go take a cold shower and eat some chocolate.
peace and love to all of you
I can symapathize with you, I hope that things get better for you in the future!
also i love the new profile picture!