i feel that my apt. is my jail cell i need to get on with my life. i need to make art. tomorrow, i'll go get some gesso so i can paint. i have a wood panel. i have the idea. i just need to make it. i'll be okay. my girl doesn't love me anymore. it hurts, but i WILL get on with my...
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the hits just keep on coming. my ex never called me back. it's easy to avoid someone when your 16 hour away. a buddy of mine was going to come on down from chicago on sat. taking some of my stuff. now he bailed. so he's not coming. i also fucked up my check book, i forgot to write in a check. so i bounce...
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i called her last night. i had to vent to her how i felt. i was so mad, i've been so upset lately. she told me flat out she doesn't love me anymore, i just pushed on on how i felt betrayed. that she is chicken shitting out of this relationship again, that she burned me twice. i'm so pissed. i'm angry. she felt bad...
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zenobia:
It sucks when you put your all into someone and it seems like they can just end like you weren't as important them as they were to you. I'm sorry she is being this and hopefully you have people close to you that you can vent to. I think it was good that you let her know how you felt and at least be able to get it out. She may not have said what you wanted to hear but at least you were able to let her know how you felt. Anyways I won't write a book just wanted to encourage you a little. I know it's rough but it'll start to get better. 
sheena:
no there wasnt enough time...
i am bummed. i just....shit. i dunno. i have too much time on my hands. i'm broke and my girl is gone and i'm a god damn mess. i want to talk to her face to face. ask her "what the fuck?"
she doesn't love me, i was a good soild boyfriend, i just wasn't a good finacially stable boyfriend...before. now i have a job,...
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she doesn't love me, i was a good soild boyfriend, i just wasn't a good finacially stable boyfriend...before. now i have a job,...
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my girl left me again. it's offically over no more. we are not getting back together.
i don't know how to deal.
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i'm on 2 and a half hours of sleep
i'm tired sad angry
i have to put up with dickhead kids today. i'll try my best. i don't know how or what to feel. time to put on my game...
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i don't know how to deal.
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i'm on 2 and a half hours of sleep
i'm tired sad angry
i have to put up with dickhead kids today. i'll try my best. i don't know how or what to feel. time to put on my game...
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sicily:
fuck your game face. i think you should dress up in a potato sac, hide behind a bush in a public area...a randomly scream at people and throw rocks, sticks, forks and clumps of leaf. you might get arrested, but i promise you'll feel better!
laputa64:
i have LOTS of them available at any time. you just say the word!!
i'm frustrated. very frustrated. i'm going to explode frustrated. i so want to get some, it's insane. my girl is not here, i hang out with a hottie and when i go out my fuckin' head is a sprinkler.
watching porn and punching the clown is not helping. it used to. but not now, i need something, interactive. like, i want to do something naughty....
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watching porn and punching the clown is not helping. it used to. but not now, i need something, interactive. like, i want to do something naughty....
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prttybyrd:
Maybe the hottie does think you're attractive but knows you have a girl and doesn't want to mess with that. I know I know, that doesn't help anything either.
How are things with you and the gf?? Looking up I hope?
How are things with you and the gf?? Looking up I hope?
tatum:
Thank you for the comment on my set the other day! 
[Edited on Oct 13, 2004 1:23PM]
[Edited on Oct 13, 2004 1:23PM]
i feel a lot better than i did yesterday. i had a good talk with one of my boss, she was looking out for me. it feels really good that i have someone to talk to.
once in a while, i just want to punch my students in the face.
i got my washer and dryer today, finally now i can do this laundry from the past 3 weeks
yay!
yay!
prttybyrd:
You know you are a nerd when you get excited about a new washer and dryer. Have fun laundering!!!
MY FUCKIN' WASHER AND DRYER ISN'T HERE! 
i'm so pissed, i was waiting for this for a long fucking time. Assholes!
i hate this fuckin' waiting game.
i'm so pissed, i was waiting for this for a long fucking time. Assholes!
i hate this fuckin' waiting game.
shit, i'm a jack ass. i had a bout of insecurity with my girl friend. so i'm down here, and she's up north. she called me last night on the verge of tears saying she has no one to hang out with. that she is all alone. all my friend's like her, they are her friend, she doesn't think that she is their's.
so anyways...
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prttybyrd:
Don't get jerked around dude. Of course I'm only hearing your side of the story, but it sounds like she's not being very respectful. Grrr.
Don't get jerked around dude. Of course I'm only hearing your side of the story, but it sounds like she's not being very respectful. Grrr.
prttybyrd:
Well responding to your journal is much more fun than studying!
Oh and did i ever tell you that girls are crazy and they all suck?
Oh and did i ever tell you that girls are crazy and they all suck?
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american_exile:
well it seems like Erie11 reccomends you and thats good enough. welcome to modern pirates!
american_exile:
well it seems like Erie11 reccomends you and thats good enough. welcome to modern pirates!
I am on friendster sometimes.
I am sorry to here about your lovelife.
that sure does motherhumpin' suck....
good luck with the art.
beautiful things come from the brokenest of hearts!
[Edited on Oct 24, 2004 11:38PM]