Heylo again,
This is actually unusual for me to update my journal so soon-but, Things just keep blocking my head right now, and i have to write about it.
Mayhaps it's the fact that i'm sick right now, and, despite the fact, have been drinking(although, it's not the best idea under medication)-I feel like 'venting' right now.
I can't help but feel i've been cheated on love yet again. Recently, i've discovered that someone I started to have feelings for-had the same feelings about me. Normally, this would make me oh so happy-but, in this case, it saddens me. Why? You may ask, because this other person so happens to be involved with someone else. And becuase i hate to be that 'other' person, I can't do anything about it, which sucks major ass.
I guess I find ryhme and reason for everything that happens in my life-every person I meet, eventually seems to change my life in somw way or another, which is super cool in it's own way I suppose-but I have yet to experience 'true love' in all of it's forms. Of all the girls I've dated, there's only two I can really say i truly loved, I mean, been truly in love with. And, in both cases, they've crushed my heart beyond belief.
Which is why I've pretty much determined that I'm destined to be alone the rest of my life.
Anyway, i'm rambling, and I know nothing can be done to correct anything i feel at this point-but I feel like sharing it regardless.
Adios for now....
This is actually unusual for me to update my journal so soon-but, Things just keep blocking my head right now, and i have to write about it.
Mayhaps it's the fact that i'm sick right now, and, despite the fact, have been drinking(although, it's not the best idea under medication)-I feel like 'venting' right now.
I can't help but feel i've been cheated on love yet again. Recently, i've discovered that someone I started to have feelings for-had the same feelings about me. Normally, this would make me oh so happy-but, in this case, it saddens me. Why? You may ask, because this other person so happens to be involved with someone else. And becuase i hate to be that 'other' person, I can't do anything about it, which sucks major ass.
I guess I find ryhme and reason for everything that happens in my life-every person I meet, eventually seems to change my life in somw way or another, which is super cool in it's own way I suppose-but I have yet to experience 'true love' in all of it's forms. Of all the girls I've dated, there's only two I can really say i truly loved, I mean, been truly in love with. And, in both cases, they've crushed my heart beyond belief.
Which is why I've pretty much determined that I'm destined to be alone the rest of my life.
Anyway, i'm rambling, and I know nothing can be done to correct anything i feel at this point-but I feel like sharing it regardless.
Adios for now....
brybox:
become a monk, devote your life to the expanding of the mind. It's a solid plan, and hey, look at it this way, you're already bald 