Yeppers, yet another kind of sad journal entry-and mind you, at almost 5 in the morning to-what does that tell you?
It's been a week of pure torture for me-as if you read my last journal entry-you know what's been going on.
Erin and I tried this, let's go back to the 'dating' thing, and spend more time apart. And, it's been pure tortue, little did I know, for both of us.
I invited Erin over this evening after work to watch one of 'our' shows. You know, one on those programs we always watch together. Though, I knew it was just going to be an excuse to talk with her again.
And that's what it turned out being. We watched our show mind you(Rachael Ray on the food network-if you haven't watched it, it's where she goes around the country eating at various places in a different city each week), anyway, she was in Vegas for this last show. And, as luck should have it, Erin and I went to Vegas this past year. One of the many mnay fond memories I have with her. So needless to say, it was hard to watch, with memories lingering in our heads.
So I broke, after the show. I asked her how this whole week has been for her-had I been at that 'annoying as to not know what to do' stage. And she replied yeah. SO we started talking about everything-and low and behold, guess what, we both started sobbing.
Though, I've cried quite a bit over this last week-and it wasn't a surprise that we should hold back.
Needless to say, we talked for 3 hours about everything, crying and what not the entire time. Butr suddenly, getting back to a comfortable stage again, where we could actually talk again, which was nice.
I guess we both felt quite awkward recently, over this past week(as we work together), so it was nice to cut through everything felt, and get everything out in the open.
I do apologize to Synnove for writing and asking for advice, my bad. I didn't mean to bother you know, just needed a friendly ear
But, we parted as friends this morning, not 5 minutes ago, crying again, hugging and kissing a bit. I think it's all for the best though.
There is an age difference, and I guess, when I was her age, I would have been totally freaked out at everything going on to. I mean, we both love each other so much, that it hurts-and really, it scares me now. I've never loved anyone as much as I hold for her-and she admitted the same. It feels good, but hurts at the same time, knowing the pain that can cause.
But, we're friends now-which may sound corny to some, but makes me quite content. I feel a hell of a lot better after speaking my mind, and hearing her speak hers-it lifts a great burden I've been carrying for a week now...and right now, it feels good.
Ok, enough corniness and sappy stuff-I apologize, but I'm guessing if you didn't want to read it, you passed over this by now...
Peace out homeslices, I'm off to the sack for some rest...nice to get now
It's been a week of pure torture for me-as if you read my last journal entry-you know what's been going on.
Erin and I tried this, let's go back to the 'dating' thing, and spend more time apart. And, it's been pure tortue, little did I know, for both of us.
I invited Erin over this evening after work to watch one of 'our' shows. You know, one on those programs we always watch together. Though, I knew it was just going to be an excuse to talk with her again.
And that's what it turned out being. We watched our show mind you(Rachael Ray on the food network-if you haven't watched it, it's where she goes around the country eating at various places in a different city each week), anyway, she was in Vegas for this last show. And, as luck should have it, Erin and I went to Vegas this past year. One of the many mnay fond memories I have with her. So needless to say, it was hard to watch, with memories lingering in our heads.
So I broke, after the show. I asked her how this whole week has been for her-had I been at that 'annoying as to not know what to do' stage. And she replied yeah. SO we started talking about everything-and low and behold, guess what, we both started sobbing.
Though, I've cried quite a bit over this last week-and it wasn't a surprise that we should hold back.
Needless to say, we talked for 3 hours about everything, crying and what not the entire time. Butr suddenly, getting back to a comfortable stage again, where we could actually talk again, which was nice.
I guess we both felt quite awkward recently, over this past week(as we work together), so it was nice to cut through everything felt, and get everything out in the open.
I do apologize to Synnove for writing and asking for advice, my bad. I didn't mean to bother you know, just needed a friendly ear
But, we parted as friends this morning, not 5 minutes ago, crying again, hugging and kissing a bit. I think it's all for the best though.
There is an age difference, and I guess, when I was her age, I would have been totally freaked out at everything going on to. I mean, we both love each other so much, that it hurts-and really, it scares me now. I've never loved anyone as much as I hold for her-and she admitted the same. It feels good, but hurts at the same time, knowing the pain that can cause.
But, we're friends now-which may sound corny to some, but makes me quite content. I feel a hell of a lot better after speaking my mind, and hearing her speak hers-it lifts a great burden I've been carrying for a week now...and right now, it feels good.
Ok, enough corniness and sappy stuff-I apologize, but I'm guessing if you didn't want to read it, you passed over this by now...
Peace out homeslices, I'm off to the sack for some rest...nice to get now
i'm so, so sorry. i know how much it hurts to get your heart broken, and i do hope yours is on the mend soon.