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Cam was singing in the shower......no music on, just so full of life and joy that he was singing.

I can't remember the last time i felt like that. I hate that i grew up.


I had 14 people in my yoga class this morning. I love that many people. My friend Brooke brought two other ladies. I love one of them, she is amazing. I love being around other fierce and amazing ladies. I missed having ladies like that around. I'll need to have lady time once a week.


Josh and i are back at it again and this time i was thinking of a way to change the way I think about sex. Changing my outlook. The only idea i had was to be abstinate for a couple of months. Not being disapointed that i am not getting it may fade if i know i am not going to. It's just the most ridiculous rift ever. I was talking to the ladies about it today. "Soooo, he doesn't like sex?" Me: "No, he likes it alot, when we are doing it it's rad and he actually says to me "we should do this more." He just isn't sexually motivated." "Weird." "Yeah, i know." I asked him today if he has ever been compatible with anyone he was with......no. The reason i stay is because in the big picture sex isn't that huge right? The other things i love about him overshadow sex. If i was paralized tomorrow and sex was not going to include feeling anymore he would be an amazing man. He is an amazing man, just frustrating. I need to stop thinking about it and just be.

I sold a $15,000 roof this week. It was to a yoga couple. They are amazing. They are the most life devoted people i have met.....pictures of their guru above their bed. Interesting to be around them. The first visit i was there she gave me am om for my house, it was hanging on hers, i put it on mine. This time she gave me a chakra crystal carving. When you hold it up to the light with the point facing away from you, it is the 3-d image of it. Interesting.
Link to its meaning
Looks like this:

I like this picture.