hopesfall

So i just got back from and AMAZING fucking show, red tape yeah they were ok the break yeah they sucked, FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES were fucking amazing better than the last time i saw them but they did not play short stories with tragic endings but they did play reflections and no trivia that was the shit, then FUCKING ATREYU they played all the fucking songs i wanted them to except for Tulips are Better but they played track 7 off suicide notes that was the shit, and holy fucking hell when they played lip gloss and black that was seriously better than sex, i can barely remember sex but from what i can remember LIP GLOSS AND BLACK was better than it, and my friend jon fucking fell down then started punching the fucking floor i was gonna go mosh with his ass but he was fuckign scarey as shit at this show the closest i got to him is when he came up to me and put his arm around me and we fucking SCREAMED Like shit for aint love grand i think but fucking shit that was amazing, and also jessica was there, it was cool we did not fight about anything except how she was the one who always won the fights when we had them (that is a lie i always fucking won ) but after 5 months 1 week and 2 days i still fucking love her more that anything it was the hardest fucking thing to say bye to her tonight cause i know i am not going to see her for a while and the worst thing was she leaned down to tell me something and i almost fucking kissed her that would have been bad, i fucking hate that she cant see how much i miss her, or she does but does not want to i have come to the conclusion that i am going to be retarded for this girl for a long ass fucking time, AND IT FUCKING SUX, if i am not over her by December 24 someone please fucking SHOOT ME, but on a happier note i got my Silverstein shirt back