hopesfall

hey My grandparents are going to take my dog for me so I can get him back when i move in with emily, I just talked to her and she cheered me up quiet a bit it has been almost a week since i had talked to her, she seemed pretty happy about me getting my dog back casue she said she wanted to get a dog when she gets back, it seems like a long ass time a away, a year and a half but i am going to be in school pretty much non stop till then, i am going to have to take summer courses this year and next year, and if i look at it like that, that is like 6 quarters, and that is not that long of a time, so hopefully it will go by alot faster then i thought it would, and i am not even going to be done with school when she gets back, i am going to get a ATA (associate of technical arts) basicly a 2 year degree in digital media, i am mainly going to focus on digital recording, which will be bad ass, but i am also going to have photography, 3d imaging, and art classes, so that will be bad ass, if all goes the way it is supposed to i will get my high school diploma over the summer of 2005 and i will get my degree in spring quarter of 2006, and emily should be back like end of summer 2005, so shit will get better, i am still pretty torn up about jessica but i will get better pretty soon, i just need to let go, she is happy and that is what is important, but i really wish she could have been happy with me, but i love her to death and i always will, and she knows that so that is good, and i know she loves me, and she is going to cut my hair tomorrow YAY, and hey i am going to hopefully take my driving test next week, so yay shit is going a little better





oh i just found out about 5 minutes ago that emily is not going to be doign water purification when she is in iraq she is going to be doing security, so she is going to be in the middle of all the bad shit, this is WONDERFUL, depsion coming back in 5...4....3....2...1...oh there you now it is back