hopesfall

Ok people i need help, i am confused as shit right now, that is right confused as shit, i am torn between two girls and i am sure you all know who the are, Jessica and Emily, and it is shity as hell cause i know i love them both but i am not sure who i love the most so here is a list of good things about the two

JESSICA
1.i know for a fact she still loves me
2.similar music tast
3.is helping me get through school
4.gave me the single greatest moment of my life
5.has never givin up faith in me
6.has givin me many second chances
7.has told me she loved me everyday for the past year
8.loves animals
9.takes care of me
10.listens to me
11.never treats me bad (exept for the cheating thing)
12.wants me to succeed
13.makes it well known that she will always love me
14.wants me to be happy
15.is proud of me

EMILY
1.loves me
2.makes me happy
3.gave me the best month of my life
4.makes me feel needed
5.closer to my age
6.trusts me
7.wants me to do good in school
8.one of the greatest people i have ever known
9.is friends with more of my friends
10.every time she comes into my life she makes me happier than anyone ever has made me

yeah i know emily's list is shorter but yeah that is ok, i go long periods of time without seeing emily, so it is easy for me to ignore my feelings for her. Right now i can not stand to see Jessica with someone else, but i can handle seeing emily with someone else, this is so fucking confusing, what the fuck, but hopefully i will see Emily this week and i will be able to decide who means more to me, right now i can not say who i think it will be or who i want it to be, after this week hopefully i will know, cause this shit sux so I got to find the fuck out. and that Story of the year cd is pretty bad ass