hooglebug

i hate being shit. i hate stupid last second ebay bidders outbidding you on something you really need and thats actually on the same street as you the bastard cuntfaced cock-knocking monkey knackers. i hate being a fat ugly bugger who know ones looks at twice. i hate liking people who hate me or even worse dont think anything about me. i hate being attracted to people who are faaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrr too good for me and really not being attracted to the maybe one or two people that might actually find me attractive. i hate knowing that the only way im going to be with anyone is if i settle for someone i dont want - so either i be miserable on my own, or be with someone and be miserable and knowing that i shouldnt be with that person cos i'll end up hurting them. i hate not being able to turn my brain off. i hate that i havent seen anyone apart from family since about april. i hate that i havent so much as had a hug since april LAST YEAR. i hate knowing that thats most likely not going to change. ever.