just been sat in the shower crying my eyes out cos for no reason my nana popped into my head and all i could think about was how i cant remember ever telling her i loved her. even when she was dying i couldnt say anything to her. i dont think she even knew i was there cos i was so scared to say anything. cos im fucking useless. and now i cant. and i have no one to go to. i have no friends. no one anywhere wants anything to do with me. they might try, but im so useless and boring they go soon after. all i want is a hug. and im never getting one.
