::waves:: 
This week's been kinda shit so far
it seems that I have gotten one bit of crap news after another 
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.... and to top it all off, I got in to trouble for being five pounds short on my rent this fought-night because I wanted to treat someone that I thinks the coolest on here to a little something that would make her smile, you'd think that seeing as I'm making up the difference in two weeks when the rest of my rent is due would make things ok but no! a lesson is what I got on responsibility (which is fuckin low considering she kept me waiting for almost a year for money that I had lent her
) still I think that said someone is more than worth the hassle and the nagging so I guess it's all cool in the end 
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...sorry got a little off track there
....erm....where was I....oh yeah....
I seem to be getting a lot of crap of late, but strangely I'm ok with things, which I find a little odd because right now I'm going through a crushingly lonely stage, Septembers always a bad month for me because its the month I split from my ex oh so many moons ago, yeah she was a bitch and I shouldn't really let her get to me especially after such a long time, but sometimes things just never stop hurting
anyway, after this month ill be embarking on my tenth year of single life...well it wont actually be ten years until next September but you know what I mean. Right now I just feel totally disembodied, like I'm just floating in limbo outside of reality? I haven't left the house for two weeks, not even stepping out in to my back yard or opening the front door but strangely I'm ok ...is this making any sense?, I think this feeling of being ok comes from the fact that despite me not physically interacting with anyone for a long time now, or, infact interacting with the outside world full stop, I know that I'm still having an impact on peoples lives, regardless of how small an impact that may be. I made a couple of people smile over the last few weeks after they had been so low and its made me feel a little better in myself I know that there are people out there who do care and understand which has really begun to give me strength, and I think that's why I know ill be ok in the end
Anyway enough of this, sorry for the shit/down beat journal folks, I know it stinks of attention seeking
I hope the end of the week comes quickly for all you hard workers out there and that it leads to a fun filled weekend for all of you, stop by and say hi soon
Hugs
This week's been kinda shit so far
it seems that I have gotten one bit of crap news after another ,,,,
.... and to top it all off, I got in to trouble for being five pounds short on my rent this fought-night because I wanted to treat someone that I thinks the coolest on here to a little something that would make her smile, you'd think that seeing as I'm making up the difference in two weeks when the rest of my rent is due would make things ok but no! a lesson is what I got on responsibility (which is fuckin low considering she kept me waiting for almost a year for money that I had lent her
) still I think that said someone is more than worth the hassle and the nagging so I guess it's all cool in the end ...
...sorry got a little off track there
....erm....where was I....oh yeah....
I seem to be getting a lot of crap of late, but strangely I'm ok with things, which I find a little odd because right now I'm going through a crushingly lonely stage, Septembers always a bad month for me because its the month I split from my ex oh so many moons ago, yeah she was a bitch and I shouldn't really let her get to me especially after such a long time, but sometimes things just never stop hurting
anyway, after this month ill be embarking on my tenth year of single life...well it wont actually be ten years until next September but you know what I mean. Right now I just feel totally disembodied, like I'm just floating in limbo outside of reality? I haven't left the house for two weeks, not even stepping out in to my back yard or opening the front door but strangely I'm ok ...is this making any sense?, I think this feeling of being ok comes from the fact that despite me not physically interacting with anyone for a long time now, or, infact interacting with the outside world full stop, I know that I'm still having an impact on peoples lives, regardless of how small an impact that may be. I made a couple of people smile over the last few weeks after they had been so low and its made me feel a little better in myself I know that there are people out there who do care and understand which has really begun to give me strength, and I think that's why I know ill be ok in the end
Anyway enough of this, sorry for the shit/down beat journal folks, I know it stinks of attention seeking
I hope the end of the week comes quickly for all you hard workers out there and that it leads to a fun filled weekend for all of you, stop by and say hi soon
Hugs
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dalila:
yeeeees there are also a few more videos like this on you tube... they make me happy all the time
silveronthetree:
