hoocha

i never imagined how many emotions that i would feel with this whole "break-up" thing. part of me just wants to be angry. angry at the world. angry at him. he did this to me, and i'll never be the same again. i'm trying hard not to hate him for that. he has a part of me that nobody else will get to see. the fucking worst part is........is that i don't think he really cares. oh yes, i am so lucky to recieve a drunk phone call at 3:30 in the morning, and that's about it. i gave him a year and a half of my life and all i'm good for is a few drunk calls. fuck that. fuck him. i hope that one day he gives his heart to someone and they toss it away like an old shoe. no...i wouldn't wish this on anyone........especially him. god i'm angry. have you ever seen the movie eternal sunshine of a spotless mind. i want that. to have my memory erased. i at least wish i had the balls to "forget" his number.

i need some friends and some hobbies.

do they sell them on ebay?