honkeykong

-sunday morning?

-wow, just woke up and i realize that i don't remember much from last night. i remember drinking a lot. i remember singing at a show. i remember drinking some more. i remember playing guitar at a show. i remember drinking some more. i remember punching some kid in the mouth who hit his girlfriend. i remember talking to Natalie..... but it's all like still pictures, ya know? no running memories, just snapshots.

Now I'm older and my mind is set
I'm moving like a guided missile haven't reached my target yet. I'm loaded with anger and adrenaline get so mad and raged sometimes I forget where I've been.
My thoughts are cluttered I'm confused,
that causes a shortening of my already burning fuse.
Been cheated on a chance to lead a normal life
Everything I've ever done has always ended in strife.
In the night, the night always brings the pain
I feel so dirty, my hands, my hands are stained
Can't see eye to eye with anyone, my mind is set and done.
You can't argue with a loaded gun
Sometimes, sometimes I feel I'm going insane
with all these sick thoughts in my head I'm going evil in the brain.
I lack any type of common sense 'cause I always want to solve all my problems with my fists and violence.
I'm losing control.
Kindness or hatred, I can't tell the difference.
You can't reason with a lunatic
I'm evil, evil in the brain.
Evil in the brain are the only words I can use to describe what I saw, how I grew and what I didn't want to know.
I wanna see the world die and not last long enough to see the blood dry, I'll die!
Smirking and laughing as long as I get my goals in sight, that's right, it's end is what I wish for every night.
The world is going to hell in a hand basket, all I want to do is fill it's casket.
I think I'm going insane.
I'm losing the cancerous tumor in my head I call a brain.
I'm losing control.
evil in the brain.
Kindness or hatred, I can't tell the difference.
evil in the brain.
I wanna give fear to the world.
evil in the brain.
You can't reason with a lunatic
I'm evil, evil in the brain.
Sick ideas seem so normal inside my brewing hate
but in everyday life I'm totally abnormal.
And all I see is red I was misled
I wish I was dead instead of having being bled.
And now it's me against the world
Right or wrong,
I haven't changed this long because my madness is that strong.
But in the end the world will pay
I won't be held responsible there's never really been another way.
I've lost it.
No pity for the suffering of the world 'cause my mind is fucked and my heart is cold.
Look at my face, there's no grace
and I'm laced with disgust for the entire human race.
My mind is a fury traumatized by all their shit and lies
broken promises and endless hatred for the world, it dies!
A recipe for madness in a sick cold world,
I can't go on with these cards I've been dealt
I'll just fold.
Evil in the brain