honeysuckle17

It's 1:20 am, and Im having a bit of a dissertation crisis. I thought I wanted to explore issues of sexuality in Latin America. A part of me still wants to, but Im not sure if the topic is important enough. The reason that I wanted to study gender and sexuality is because they are concepts that I think most people misunderstand. I feel like I have something to say about them. I think that most people see a binary opposition between gay and straight and between male and female, which I think are completely constructed, and I think that gayness and straightness and maleness and femaleness are much more the result of performances than genes

But maybe it would make much more sense for me to just write a manifesto of sorts about these issues instead of spending years of my life doing research to try to prove something that I have a hunch about. Im starting to think that it would be unfair of me to spend a year living with some group of people in Mexico and trying to figure out how they construct the world and think about categories of gender and sexuality just so that I can come back to the US and use my data to show Americans that the way that theyre seeing the world is wrong, according to me.

I think I might have a new idea for a dissertation project--possibly. I'm going to brainstorm about it tonight, because it's pretty clear that I'm not going to get any sleep.