honeylust

There is always a strange feeling that comes in the air when you are put into a situation with a ex lover that you had not been expecting to be put into.
I don't like haveing to speak to ex men of my life. It takes me quite literaly almost eight years to stomach it proper. No matter how 'right' it was for us to part ways, I will always feel love having to end is wrong. It makes me sad.

Have you ever felt your love was not good enough for someone. I have not told the Lost boy that I love him yet, and its because I know what love is, real love, the type that last, and Ii want to give him that because that is what he deserves. When your that close to someone, as we have become, and someone gets hurt or mad, its hard not to go for blood, instead of taking a step back and saying maybe we just need time to cool off and view the seen from a less biased perspective. The best people in my life, the dearest to me, I do not love proper and Ii hate that, it needs to change. I take advantage of the fact that they will not leave me, that their love for me will make them stick around and put up with my bull.

Does anyone know what I am sayin here??