So, I applied to be a Suicide Girl, and was so happy the day I was accepted. They sent me the e-mail address of a staff photographer, who I set up a shoot with within a couple of weeks. I couldn't wait. I had a notebook full of ideas, a vision in my head of how it could be....
...but everything just wouldn't fall into place! I started to feel discouraged, and nervous.
Then, the photo shoot....
...it wasn't my very best. I knew it at the time. I knew it before hand. I had such good ideas, and the one chosen didn't fit, and ran out of fuel halfway through. I had so many clever thoughts and ended up choosing the most boring one with the least potential. My outfit was mundane. I was nervous. It wasn't my first shoot, but it was certainly the most important one to date.
Weeks went by. I checked my e-mail and the "SG applicants" page every day. EVERY DAY.
I saw a "complimentary SG membership" e-mail in my inbox. I gasped aloud at work... did my set get posted?
Silly me. No. That meant it hadn't, but what a sweet thing to do. A free membership, just for trying. I immediately scowred the site, looking at all of the girls who had made it, and what their sets were like. I knew just by looking at them that my set wasn't as good, and I STILL haven't even seen my pictures yet.
I already have another set ready. I am so much more excited about it. The photographer is awesome, and her ideas were so full of creativity! Plus, as an SG herself (will reveal the name later, if the set gets posted) I knew she had a good eye for what the powers-that-be would approve of. It's really cute!
So, I'm a little discouraged, very disappointed, but not hopeless. I'm determined. Wish me luck.
...but everything just wouldn't fall into place! I started to feel discouraged, and nervous.
Then, the photo shoot....
...it wasn't my very best. I knew it at the time. I knew it before hand. I had such good ideas, and the one chosen didn't fit, and ran out of fuel halfway through. I had so many clever thoughts and ended up choosing the most boring one with the least potential. My outfit was mundane. I was nervous. It wasn't my first shoot, but it was certainly the most important one to date.
Weeks went by. I checked my e-mail and the "SG applicants" page every day. EVERY DAY.
I saw a "complimentary SG membership" e-mail in my inbox. I gasped aloud at work... did my set get posted?
Silly me. No. That meant it hadn't, but what a sweet thing to do. A free membership, just for trying. I immediately scowred the site, looking at all of the girls who had made it, and what their sets were like. I knew just by looking at them that my set wasn't as good, and I STILL haven't even seen my pictures yet.
I already have another set ready. I am so much more excited about it. The photographer is awesome, and her ideas were so full of creativity! Plus, as an SG herself (will reveal the name later, if the set gets posted) I knew she had a good eye for what the powers-that-be would approve of. It's really cute!
So, I'm a little discouraged, very disappointed, but not hopeless. I'm determined. Wish me luck.
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paleenchantress:
oooooooooooo my, you are GORGEOUS!!!!!!!! i tryed for SG a couple of years ago as well and was denied. i may try again some day but who knows.... . i think you are beautiful and i hope to see your set!!! 
netalya:
I miss you gorgeous!!!