Sunday Jan 11, 2004

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Went out this weekend (Beauty Bar) on Friday, and (Falcon) Sat.. plus a little (Crazy Girls action as well) .. Got a little drunk.. and had fun.

Took a bunch of cool pictures that I will try and post later.

Oh, and have been working on a new Sexual movment / position.. called

Pirate Style.

I'll let ya Know .. smile
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hollywoodrocks:
[imaes]C:\My Documents\My Pictures\Meblonde.JPG[/images]
hollywoodrocks:
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Saturday Jan 10, 2004

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I'm still sad Kids.

I'm still so blown away that my ex is living with her new boyfriend. I mean, I'm just sad. She still has given me no reasons for why she didn't want to be with me anymore, and the old reasons that she did give at the time we broke up she says were all her just being crazy. I honestly think...
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thepromdate:
you shouldn't talk to her. i mean, really. you guys might be friends, you guys might get a long, but i think in the end it's best to not talk to her, to not know what's going on. maybe at a later time you guys can hang out again, talk, whatever. but until she doesn't make you sad, i'd just walk away from it right now.

and something good will come of it. it might not be right now, but when you find that someone and just know that they're the one, then it'll be the best thing ever.

and maybe she does know reasons why and just isn't able to be honest with herself and with you. it's really hard, to hurt someone you love or even to admit certain things to yourself. but don't worry, things will get better and the sadness will go away. smile
xxanastasiaxx:
some good will come, you'll see...
it just takes time, which of course is the hardest part..
That doesn't mean you will ever get passed or over your feelings
it just becomes easier, you learn to cope
and fill the void.
or you take up writing..

like me. smile

Sunday Jan 04, 2004

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Have you ever had one of those periods in your life where you look back at the choices you've made? and then say to yourself.. MAN!!! YOU'RE ONE STUPID MOTHER FUCKER!!!

well that's me.

Mr. Stupid Mother Fucker at your service.
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gasmaskboy:
Sorry Bro, I know what ya mean.

hopes things go better, and just remember next time.

delirium_faerie:
sometimes i hate people. i think most of the smart ones must drink at home.

Saturday Jan 03, 2004

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It sad to think that I've never really had a time in my life where everything was right and I was happy.

I don't even know what that would be like.

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escapegoat:
me too........
when i look back, i dont really know where i lost the magic
ive tasted it in later life for moments,then its gone
although......i think ive created a world where i prefer it to be fucked up.....for better or worse......ive constructed a character that defines "me".......
thepromdate:
you know, i wouldn't even mind the dead end part so much, as long as i was paying rent and bills, etc. that's the part that kills me. i'm going nowhere and struggling.


nice, huh? smile

Thursday Jan 01, 2004

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I met my ex for lunch today. I arived early and I was able to see her get out of her car. I caught myself saying.. WOW.. she's so beautiful.. (I'm telling you I had one of those Movie moments where everything went slow motion.. and I was just in Awe of her.) As corny as it sounds.. I swear she looked like an angle.....
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xxanastasiaxx:
if I ever find myself in LA (still trying to make it out that way)
I'll buy you a martini ( or a few)
I'll wax poetically (or pathetically)
maybe there will actually be words of wisdom (doubtful)
I'm also more then happy to just listen.

smile
thepromdate:
it's good that you remember happy things. sometimes i forget that there were good times, because i can usually only think of the last half year or so that was nothing but crying, sadness, mistrust, and fighting. oh, and not having an asshole ex-boyfriend is really weird. nice, but just really strange. and although we're friendly, i could never in a million years admit to him that i'm in love more than i ever have been and really happy. it just seems too harsh. so, even though you guys are still friends, don't you think it's best to not know certain things? because, although you're happy for her (right?), you don't really want to hear about her new boyfriend, do you?

Tuesday Dec 30, 2003

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on the phone she cries all the time..
that's good I guess.. just cause it makes me know that she cares.

She tells me that I'm the only person that brings her to tears..

She says that it's not because I'm mean to her or anything, but that when I say things to her they touch her deep.. and it's in a way that scares...
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gasmaskboy:
Awwwww....

heh cuteness....

have a good year man...

\m/

Monday Dec 22, 2003

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So I'm in Tulsa Oklahoma right now..(On Vacation to see Family). What a depressing place.. Maybe it's just bad memories or something, but.. this place kind of makes me sad..

well, really, it is nice to see my Mother and Grandmother.. They both rock the house yo.

I dropped by my ex-girlfriends sisters house today.. I gave her nieces some Japanese candy that I bought...
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annysia:
awww, sorry to hear all that. try to make the most of your holidays. Alisa has some good advice...

Happy Holidayz!!! smile *cheers*
xxanastasiaxx:
*hugs* I'm so sorry. Try to make the best of your trip, the holidays are almost over, it will be a new year and maybe good things will happen.

Wishing you all the best.

kiss

Saturday Dec 20, 2003

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So I have Kept SG kind of a secret.. Just cause I'm a bastard like that, and I want it all to myself. I just told my bestfreind about the site, and I've been a member for a year, BUT the one friend that I did tell.. has been thinking about applying to become an SG .. I think that would be kind of cool....
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silencenoir:
She should definitly apply. She'd fit right in! smile

Friday Dec 19, 2003

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I think I got the Strep Throat.. and nope.. I don't like it. frown

Sunday Dec 14, 2003

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I jogged 4 miles today, and then had a friggin panic attack right afterwards. Let me tell ya that sucks.. being all tired, and worn out and shit, and then all the panic. I was dizzy, head spinning, and heart pounding, but fuck it, I am not letting that shit stop me. I'm not gonna stop..

I'm gonna watch the Simpsons now..

Hope you are...
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jj_r0x0rz:
ahh the simpsons a cure for everything...
cornelius:
hey... something finally went up in the toy-collecting group. please check it out if you've got the time.

-bobby

Friday Dec 12, 2003

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ok I hate it, but I jogged 4 miles today, and mind you it was 4:50am. I couldn't sleep so I went out a jogged for a while.

I will be in Oklahoma soon for Christmas. Should I stop by and see my Ex? Man, that's a hard one for me. I still miss her a lot. Well, either way, I'm gonna stop by here...
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rawr_ima_monster:
SLeep is my bitch, dude.
-I'll teach it to backsass me. worthless slut-ass sleep...damn.
Dave
rawr_ima_monster:
for serious.
-you know it.
Dave

Monday Dec 08, 2003

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I have had so much on my mind lately. I don't really talk about this kind of stuff with anyone, well, anymore that is..

I was
raised in a Cult, and although I'm over it all for the most part. Once in a blue moon, it still gets to me... I don't even know what's bothering me about it. It just is.

also.. last...
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xxanastasiaxx:
Hi!

it's that time of the year. I find myself doing the same thing..but I have been keeping busy, trying to keep my mind distracted.

distractions are good.

kiss sending you warm, fuzzy, happy thoughts.

thepromdate:
i guess you call it bling bling...


it's funny how you can be over something, no hard feelings, nothing, yet the idea of being in a familiar place can be sickening.
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