hollowbutcher

I don't know what to do anymore, I'm just never happy and I can't stand it.

I have friends and family, but none of it makes a difference. Relationships are meaningless and nonexistent to me, I don't mind that though. Being alone is fine with me, but maybe it makes a difference. The fact is nothing in this world make me smile and mean it. I'm tired of being the sad clown and laughing for everyone on the outside but constantly crying inside....I haven't slept a full eight hours for as long as I can remember. I can't find a reason to get out of bed and I don't go to work because of it at times. I don't even care if I lose my job anymore. I don't have anyone to turn to and talk to because it seems like no one gives a crap. That and there are those I just can't burden with those things. It's not like we're involved anyway so I doubt they'd notice very much if we didn't talk again. Fact is...I could disappear and I doubt anyone will notice..