hollowbutcher

Well this is my first blog thing in a while. I'm just not sure how much longer I can go.

For the first time in six years I found someone I could give my undivided love to. Someone I care more about than anyone else. I love this girl more than I could hope for.

Last night she broke my heart. There is an actual pain in my chest, probably two steps away from a heart attack type of pain. I woke up this morning at 5 am crying. I couldn't get back to sleep because of how much this hurts. I don't know what to say or do. The fact is, I don't even know if I can ever love again after this. I don't think it's possible. This world is not ment for someone such as myself. Hopefully I can do something, I can't possibly think of what.

Everything started to change when I met this girl. My life turned around and things were looking up for once. I never thought about suicide or even had any depressing thoughts. Well that's completely turned around. I should've seen this coming. Ever time something good happens to me, it comes back much worse. Story of my fucking life. The thing is, no one fucking cares. If I were to disappear today I doubt anyone would even noticed.