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r0nin:
How did the weekend go? Feelin better?
r0nin:
DOH!! I hate when that happens! It seems to ONLY happen when I write a real big update.
It seems that changing my perception created the small miracle I needed...at least well enough so that I'm not miserable anymore.
My biggest pet peeve? Is that he doesn't seem to get what my upset is.
For him...the situation we're in is paradise. He's in love with being in love...he's in love with the quiet, solitary life he's built up here. I can't blame him...
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My biggest pet peeve? Is that he doesn't seem to get what my upset is.
For him...the situation we're in is paradise. He's in love with being in love...he's in love with the quiet, solitary life he's built up here. I can't blame him...
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r0nin:
If only I could find a woman in Illinois who likes drag racing and whiskey... Life would be sweet! 
papawheelie:
I have to look through his eyes for a minute and say I can't blame the guy one bit for getting all gooey over you... you are totally the "dream prize" for a guy with that kind of lifestyle.
I'm tired of being miserable and I'm looking for a miracle...
I once heard someone say that a miracle was just a change in perception...and if that's true...does that mean I can give up being miserable? Just like that? Just by changing the way I've been looking at things?
Let's see...instead of saying I've lost all my independence...I can say...for the first time in my...
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I once heard someone say that a miracle was just a change in perception...and if that's true...does that mean I can give up being miserable? Just like that? Just by changing the way I've been looking at things?
Let's see...instead of saying I've lost all my independence...I can say...for the first time in my...
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heterochromia:
You have that fabulous, glamorous '40s look that I could never accomplish - it's worth it to cut your hair for that look!
As for changing your perception...I say trust your instincts. Consider the positives, consider the negatives, then - trust your instincts. Always.
As for changing your perception...I say trust your instincts. Consider the positives, consider the negatives, then - trust your instincts. Always.
1_dying_wish:
ooo, drag strip sounds nice... as fir the suffocation part, sounds like you're not ready for the 24/7 relationship and you should not force yourself if you are not feeling it... finish the car, then distance yourself - let it be known you're not into the whole needy partner thing..
do youl ike this guy at all, or are you just hangin in ther for lack of something else?
anyway, remember that for a hot chick like yourself there are many options as far as "dating" so go ahead sample different "relationships" and decide what works best for B]YOU.
well, enough preaching - i think you're awesome, but i know that prob don't mean much to you since you don't really know me in "real life"..
do youl ike this guy at all, or are you just hangin in ther for lack of something else?
anyway, remember that for a hot chick like yourself there are many options as far as "dating" so go ahead sample different "relationships" and decide what works best for B]YOU.
well, enough preaching - i think you're awesome, but i know that prob don't mean much to you since you don't really know me in "real life"..
It's 9:21pm....
All I really want is for him to go to fucking sleep...as if he hasn't been dozing on the couch on and off for more than an hour or so...
I miss the days when I could have a conversation on my phone without wondering who's going to hear it....
I miss being able to mix up a bowl of my favorite low-fat...
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All I really want is for him to go to fucking sleep...as if he hasn't been dozing on the couch on and off for more than an hour or so...
I miss the days when I could have a conversation on my phone without wondering who's going to hear it....
I miss being able to mix up a bowl of my favorite low-fat...
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r0nin:
I think you're right because as much as I'd like to be able to hate him, I just can't... IT SUCKS!! I guess I just need to be grateful for the fact that I was at least able to rebuild a relationship with one of my parents and stop wasting my time with him..
Anyway.. Enough about me... How are you?
Anyway.. Enough about me... How are you?
1_dying_wish:
sounds like you know what you need to do...
Let's hope it's just a touch of the pms...
Until about a week ago I was as happy as a pig in shit.
I'm living in a real pretty house. Work my own hours. Have an adorable gimpy dog and my own two cats up here. The moon and stars here are beautiful... The sky always clear and the atmosphere relaxed. My friend/roommate/business partner is...
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Until about a week ago I was as happy as a pig in shit.
I'm living in a real pretty house. Work my own hours. Have an adorable gimpy dog and my own two cats up here. The moon and stars here are beautiful... The sky always clear and the atmosphere relaxed. My friend/roommate/business partner is...
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yuriel:
all humanity is full of shit
i'm a living contradiction tearing itself apart and damned and destined to explode implode or simply dissipate
<3
thanks for the well wishes
i really need to update and keep new comments and tabs on people ive felt so burnt out lately physically and mentally im just like eh, meh. yah yah ill do it later or something lol
... you were in rita.
interesting i was stuck in that damned thing -laugh-
i'm a living contradiction tearing itself apart and damned and destined to explode implode or simply dissipate
<3
thanks for the well wishes
i really need to update and keep new comments and tabs on people ive felt so burnt out lately physically and mentally im just like eh, meh. yah yah ill do it later or something lol
... you were in rita.
interesting i was stuck in that damned thing -laugh-
leyla:
Youre an amazing women! I'm sure that youve removed yourself from far more difficult/complicated situations. Just do what you think/feel is right.
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1_dying_wish:
i will buy a copy!
ekelly:
you should send this all to a news person on here so it shows up on the main page.. I'm more than positive they would because this is freaking awesome!!
Today I did two things I've never done before....
1. I brazed some fender seams on the DeSoto...
VIDEO EVIDENCE
2. I drag raced!!!
Have you ever seen a mini van drag race? Me neither...but that's because I WAS DRIVING!
Dial in run....
VIDEO EVIDENCE
My final run...
P.s. My camera man was so excited by my last run that he cut himself off...Here are...
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1. I brazed some fender seams on the DeSoto...
VIDEO EVIDENCE
2. I drag raced!!!
Have you ever seen a mini van drag race? Me neither...but that's because I WAS DRIVING!
Dial in run....
VIDEO EVIDENCE
My final run...
P.s. My camera man was so excited by my last run that he cut himself off...Here are...
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poolboy6:
The team of enablers is pretty much no more. I'm it. Chris is around once and a while, but he's off to India and Bosnia and all over with his new job. Mark is back in PA and Eric does his thing now...
kay:
And I love ya like crazy for it. 
*kisses fer the end of yer nose*
~cheers
*kisses fer the end of yer nose*
~cheers
Normally when I wake up and find a message written to me on my bathroom mirror, it's got some kind of spiritual tone...inspiration...meditation...something of that sort...
Today I woke up and my mirror said, "Learn to drag race on Sept. 20th."
Today I woke up and my mirror said, "Learn to drag race on Sept. 20th."
gypsyphoenix:
its exactly what i was thinking. naming them gives them power, to a certain degree, but it also gives me the ability to know my enemy, and be better equipped to battle against them.
I want to tell you what a great weekend I had.
I want to tell you about getting my first 'shout out' for the work that I'm doing by fellow hotroders...
I want to tell you about the thrill of watching cars racing on the dry lake bed of El Mirage...
But today my mind is elswhere...
My memories of 9/11 run deep, and they...
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I want to tell you about getting my first 'shout out' for the work that I'm doing by fellow hotroders...
I want to tell you about the thrill of watching cars racing on the dry lake bed of El Mirage...
But today my mind is elswhere...
My memories of 9/11 run deep, and they...
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kay:
Amen sister.
The 10th I was trying to find my boyfriend. He had disappeared yet again, and I was pissed, because I was knocked up, and I still did not know.
The 11th, there were too many things that happened. I got the call first thing in the morning, reporting to me that 93 was off course, and that I might be needed down at the state capital. Lots transpired after that. I still could not find my boyfriend, and I knew he would get called in. He did. I found him, and he could not figure out why I was so angry. Still trying to get my parents out of any major city area.
The 12th, I started trying to bleed to death. I was dazed and very confused. Still very busy with what happened in NY.
The 13th, I continued to miscarry, and finally drove myself to the hospital, blacking out all the way. I lost both of the pregnancies.
It was not a good week for anyone. I'm with you. I cry at certain things regarding that day. I will not view movies or listen or read stories about it. It just hurts too much.
~cheers
The 10th I was trying to find my boyfriend. He had disappeared yet again, and I was pissed, because I was knocked up, and I still did not know.
The 11th, there were too many things that happened. I got the call first thing in the morning, reporting to me that 93 was off course, and that I might be needed down at the state capital. Lots transpired after that. I still could not find my boyfriend, and I knew he would get called in. He did. I found him, and he could not figure out why I was so angry. Still trying to get my parents out of any major city area.
The 12th, I started trying to bleed to death. I was dazed and very confused. Still very busy with what happened in NY.
The 13th, I continued to miscarry, and finally drove myself to the hospital, blacking out all the way. I lost both of the pregnancies.
It was not a good week for anyone. I'm with you. I cry at certain things regarding that day. I will not view movies or listen or read stories about it. It just hurts too much.
~cheers
irina:
That was really beautiful. It was so hard for me to not be in New York this year on the 11th (for the the first time since it happened.) I felt like a traitor.
I'm going to the College of Santa Fe, in New Mexico. Craaaazy.
I'm going to the College of Santa Fe, in New Mexico. Craaaazy.
Just about every day I read a daily meditation from a book called, "The Celtic Spirit," by Caitlin Matthews...
Today's meditation is about the power of telling a story, and hearing a story...
The Celts believed that stories held blessings within them, and if you truly listened you would receive this blessing. They also believed that if you memorized the story and re-told the story,...
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Today's meditation is about the power of telling a story, and hearing a story...
The Celts believed that stories held blessings within them, and if you truly listened you would receive this blessing. They also believed that if you memorized the story and re-told the story,...
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gypsyphoenix:
that is a beautiful story! i've got two butterflies, that actually have meaning to me (i can explain later if you like) and it just makes them that much more special to me.
((hugs))
((hugs))