CAPRICORN (Dec 22 - Jan 19): Today's Capricorn New Moon is yours, requiring you to leave something from your past behind you. Accept what you are feeling, even if it isn't consistent with your previous plans. But don't think that the solution is to just drop whatever you are doing in favor of something new. You must find a workable balance between the opposite forces... Read More
I never used to pay much attention to my horoscope either, but my girlfriend sent me a link to the site she gets hers from and it's scary how dead on that thing has been!
Well, growing up in my house only one person was allowed to have them and it wasn't me...it also wasn't my brother. Nope, it was mom. The only person allowed to be sad or angry was mom.... Read More
It's not a matter of getting it right, the point is that you were able to say something, and that's progress. When you've gone through most of your life without being able to express your true feelings, it's not going to be easy to change, and it's certainly not something that will change overnight. I only say this due to personal experience.. I grew up very much the same way, and here I am twenty-something years later, FINALLY learning how to let people in and tell them how I really feel.. This shit is NOT easy!
I hear you on the logistical problems! It's driving me fucking crazy to be sitting here in suburban hell (AKA, Geneva Illinois) when I should be with HER! My problem is that I made a commitment to my mother to help her renovate this house because she couldn't afford to, so I can't just pick up and leave right this second like I want to.. This whole love thing just kind of snuck up on me while I wasn't looking, so it's not as though I'd had any time to really plan my exit from my current situation.. If only I could have instant gratification.. Patience is NOT my strong suit..
Anyway... I see everything you've written about lately as progress, and it sounds like you're well on your way. Just give it time
Using feelings and emotions gets better and easier with practice miss. The more you do it, the more you'll realise you'll like it, and the easier it'll become. Just don't wear your heart on your sleeve. I have a tendency to do that, and it never really works out for me!
Resolutions? I hate them...but I like to take advantage of every opportunity to re-evaluate, refocus, and rededicate... Rather than give you a list...I'll try to summarize...
This year...
That woman I used to be? The one who took chances...risked it all...dreampt big...grabbed life by the balls and forced it to cry mercy? Yeah, her... I'm not just going to reclaim her...I'm going to exceed her.... Read More
your refocus sounds much like mine for the new year....oh, and yeah, my car incident? well, I don't go out anymore w/out a d.d. or cab fare....God gave me too many chances, and just the sheer luck of the last one leads me to believe that it was my last....Have a good year!
Love will make you do and say things that may come as a surprise, especially to yourself.. At least this is the case for me.. I'm turning my whole life upside down, and I really don't care!
I'm glad you're considering the option of going back there to be with him, you seemed very happy when you wrote about being out there. I've always believed that there is nothing we can't accomplish if we put our minds to it, but having the love and support of another person just makes that much easier and especially more enjoyable. This is just my humble opinion, but from what I could tell.. You were anything but happy where you were living, and the whole situation just seemed to be holding you back.. As far as I'm concerned, the two most precious things we have are our time and our serenity. I've wasted far too much time and stayed in many situations that were doing anything but giving me serenity, and it sounds like you've done the same. It's time to start living for you!
Thank you all for all your birthday wishes Yes, yes...I'm old now...and I don't give a shit! Woot!
Typically, I hate my birthday. Having it quietly nestled in between xmas and New Years guarantees that even if people know when my birthday is, they'll forget it. As a kid it meant never having a proper birthday party since everyone would be off on vacation with... Read More
The wind is blowing something fierce...it's threatening to rain...and I'm still hiding out in Texas.
I've been terribly spoiled these past two weeks between all the hours alone and the company of my dear friend.
But I guess I've done all the thinking I can...worn out my welcome long enough...and it's time to go home.
I dread it more than you can imagine. I resist... Read More
and no time like the holidays for over-thinking the state of your life, the futilities, the unfulfilled wants...ugh. here's to another year down the drain. pass the bourbon please
xo, lady
In a conversation with a friend of mine, he asked what I wanted for Christmas.
I answered, half jokingly, with a, "You."
Serendipitously enough, through a series of unforseen mishaps, I got exactly what I wanted.
Being an xmas orphan sucks...and while being taken in by the family of friends doesn't actually CHANGE the fact that I don't have any family of my own, and... Read More
Y'know what's worse than being a Thanksgiving orphan? Being a christmas orphan. Sadly, that's been my fate more times than I care to admit.
Way, way back, when I was a little girl...I remember charging down the stairs with my big brother to find a livingroom full of presents. We didn't have a tree, of course, since the family was supposed to be Jewish (again,... Read More
It's been a good week thus far...busy, but good. I like busy.
I've been keeping up with my new yoga in the mornings and power walk in the afternoon routine.
Funny thing I discovered about being over 30...your metabolism mysteriously goes MIA without warning...
I'd complain...but my emotional well-being has always been connected to my physical activity.
When I'm in 'training' for something...it seems my... Read More
I wouldn't call it blinded by your own bullshit so much as hesitating due to percieved incapabilities that you dont hav... OK, you're blinded by your own bullshit...
For one thing, the DeSoto not only runs...but DRIVES! Yes, DRIVES!
The Moldy one and I took her for a little spin late Friday afternoon and it was incredible!
The car's been down so long, I think I never truly believed it would happen!
However, we decided (mostly moldy decided, cuz i was kinda pouty about it) NOT... Read More
moving where? we need a cool shop like that here in the valley. i do need some new belts. my chonies keep fallin off, or i take them off, too drunk to remember. anyway did you grow up here or move here on purpose?
wow, thats alot of bouncin around, i thought i was bad. i've spent time in arizona, portland, vegas, san diego, and unfortunatly my job keeps me here. thats really cool that your into cars, i built a 66' mustang, and am starting a 77' jeep. there's an ok bar here in lancaster called maxdons on ave I. it gets pretty busy on fri & sat. there's not alot of fun places here, we mostly hang out & drink at different people's houses. what about you?
Yes, yes...I'm old now...and I don't give a shit! Woot!
((hugs))