LIFE
...has taken a turn for the smooth...
Not numb so much as it had been, but smooth...
Some kind of acceptance for the situation I find myself in...
Alone, with an unknown future...
I find this calm, blank place a nice one to move around in.
Why not meet the guy who contacted me from Myspace?
Why not let him talk me into pinstriping for his buddies custom bike shop?
Why not buy a new-used car?
Why not toss all my shit in the garbage and start over somewhere new?
Why not spend some naked time with a guy I used to see?
What the hell?! What do I have to lose?
JOSH
Haven't spoken to him in a week.
Didn't speak to him for a week last time either...until I sucked it up and called him.
I'd like to think that he's just too happy to call.
Too happy not being here.
Too happy with his job.
Too happy getting his life back together.
I miss being able to talk to him though.
Miss hearing about his day.
Miss the company of my closest, most trusted friend.
Miss the way he made me feel comfortable in my own skin, no matter what...
Miss the way he inspired me to be fearless, without ever saying a word...
But I have so much other stuff on my mind...so many decisions to make...maybe this is the way it's supposed to be right now. Y'know...all things for a reason?
SCHOOL
My resume was sent out to the next six shops on Monday.
This is round two.
From the first list I've got NYC and Monterey looking good.
Not interested in going back to NYC.
Didn't risk it all just to go back, right?
Monterey sounds great, but I'm not sure about the location.
Round two includes, Oakland, San Fransisco, San Rafael, Albuquerque, Long Beach, and Walnut Creek...
WORK
Has been super slow due to many reasons...
I feel a bit under the gun the make as much money as possible...but the work gods haven't been playing along.
Seems the weather gods aren't playing along either...
RITA
...is heading this way...
I'm too far north to worry about storm surges or serious flooding, but...if the shit hits the fan...like a well trained 9/11 survivor, I've already arranged for an out of town 'safe place.' contacted my next of kin and given her my 'safe place' phone number...
I don't expect that I'll need to evacuate...but on the OFF chance...I'm set...
Either way, today's plans include gassing up the minivan and heading to wal-mart for supplies...
IN OTHER NEWS...
I ordered my pinstriping paint yesterday...$82.00 worth!!!
Oh, but it will SOOOOO be worth it!!! I can't wait!!!
Just waiting for them to call me so I can go and pick it up!!!
We now return you to your regularly scheduled program...already in progress...
...has taken a turn for the smooth...
Not numb so much as it had been, but smooth...
Some kind of acceptance for the situation I find myself in...
Alone, with an unknown future...
I find this calm, blank place a nice one to move around in.
Why not meet the guy who contacted me from Myspace?
Why not let him talk me into pinstriping for his buddies custom bike shop?
Why not buy a new-used car?
Why not toss all my shit in the garbage and start over somewhere new?
Why not spend some naked time with a guy I used to see?
What the hell?! What do I have to lose?
JOSH
Haven't spoken to him in a week.
Didn't speak to him for a week last time either...until I sucked it up and called him.
I'd like to think that he's just too happy to call.
Too happy not being here.
Too happy with his job.
Too happy getting his life back together.
I miss being able to talk to him though.
Miss hearing about his day.
Miss the company of my closest, most trusted friend.
Miss the way he made me feel comfortable in my own skin, no matter what...
Miss the way he inspired me to be fearless, without ever saying a word...
But I have so much other stuff on my mind...so many decisions to make...maybe this is the way it's supposed to be right now. Y'know...all things for a reason?
SCHOOL
My resume was sent out to the next six shops on Monday.
This is round two.
From the first list I've got NYC and Monterey looking good.
Not interested in going back to NYC.
Didn't risk it all just to go back, right?
Monterey sounds great, but I'm not sure about the location.
Round two includes, Oakland, San Fransisco, San Rafael, Albuquerque, Long Beach, and Walnut Creek...
WORK
Has been super slow due to many reasons...
I feel a bit under the gun the make as much money as possible...but the work gods haven't been playing along.
Seems the weather gods aren't playing along either...
RITA
...is heading this way...
I'm too far north to worry about storm surges or serious flooding, but...if the shit hits the fan...like a well trained 9/11 survivor, I've already arranged for an out of town 'safe place.' contacted my next of kin and given her my 'safe place' phone number...
I don't expect that I'll need to evacuate...but on the OFF chance...I'm set...
Either way, today's plans include gassing up the minivan and heading to wal-mart for supplies...
IN OTHER NEWS...
I ordered my pinstriping paint yesterday...$82.00 worth!!!
Oh, but it will SOOOOO be worth it!!! I can't wait!!!
Just waiting for them to call me so I can go and pick it up!!!
We now return you to your regularly scheduled program...already in progress...
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