A NEW DAY...
Yes, as always, the sun rose this morning on a new day.
By the end of the night I was already feeling better. (thanks very much to my love, doineanta)
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Realized this morning how tired I am of showing up to school still half-drunk from the night before...and that Josh was right, drying myself out and getting myself together is something I have to do for myself.
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Called him during my lunch break to ask how his interviews had gone, as if they'd go anything less than perfect!
Also got to tell him about my not being all into him anymore, which makes me feel good because I would never forgive myself if I lost that guy as my friend.
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Got to chat with a classmate about how much easier it would be if I had some kind of goal to shoot for in regards to post-graduation life.
We agreed that without knowing where we'll end up...it's hard to keep inspired. I know I'll end up in the northeast somewhere...but where...who knows?
Did find some piece of inspiration when I was outside having a smoke with one of my instructors and not only did he confirm that this school/industry has a way of making alcoholics out of just about anybody...but that I'd scored the highest out of anyone on the phone interview way back. That in fact I'd out scored the machine on at least three questions.
Got some more inspiration back in class when my instructor was saying that I wouldn't be doing body work for very long. With my educational background, I'll be management within a year. True, I'll be sitting behind a desk again...but this time I'll be raking in the cash.
He admitted that the positions I could get...I'd be making more than both my instructors combined. And yes, I find that pretty fucking inspiring, even though the thought of not getting my hands dirty sorta disappoints me. With that much money coming in, I'll be able to afford project cars to get dirty on...and still do the custom stuff on the side for fun.
***
While my immediate goal should be to get back to work and make some money...I've decided to try and be a little more responsible about the OTHER things I've been putting off.
But right now, I'm going to have some lunch first and relax while I listen to the coming thunderstorm.
Yes, as always, the sun rose this morning on a new day.
By the end of the night I was already feeling better. (thanks very much to my love, doineanta)
***
Realized this morning how tired I am of showing up to school still half-drunk from the night before...and that Josh was right, drying myself out and getting myself together is something I have to do for myself.
***
Called him during my lunch break to ask how his interviews had gone, as if they'd go anything less than perfect!
Also got to tell him about my not being all into him anymore, which makes me feel good because I would never forgive myself if I lost that guy as my friend.
***
Got to chat with a classmate about how much easier it would be if I had some kind of goal to shoot for in regards to post-graduation life.
We agreed that without knowing where we'll end up...it's hard to keep inspired. I know I'll end up in the northeast somewhere...but where...who knows?
Did find some piece of inspiration when I was outside having a smoke with one of my instructors and not only did he confirm that this school/industry has a way of making alcoholics out of just about anybody...but that I'd scored the highest out of anyone on the phone interview way back. That in fact I'd out scored the machine on at least three questions.
Got some more inspiration back in class when my instructor was saying that I wouldn't be doing body work for very long. With my educational background, I'll be management within a year. True, I'll be sitting behind a desk again...but this time I'll be raking in the cash.
He admitted that the positions I could get...I'd be making more than both my instructors combined. And yes, I find that pretty fucking inspiring, even though the thought of not getting my hands dirty sorta disappoints me. With that much money coming in, I'll be able to afford project cars to get dirty on...and still do the custom stuff on the side for fun.
***
While my immediate goal should be to get back to work and make some money...I've decided to try and be a little more responsible about the OTHER things I've been putting off.
But right now, I'm going to have some lunch first and relax while I listen to the coming thunderstorm.
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
flatblack:
What Austin doesn't make the cut? Oh well. To each his own. Besides, this isnt' the best place to try to dry out.
shamunda:
Sober isn't too bad, it means remembering where you left your keys and the other shoe from the night before.