holliday

Thank you so much for my warm welcome back I missed you guys!!! (and the truth is, i was kinda worried there too for a minute)

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Finally was able to take a day off yesterday.

After two long weeks of up at 5am for school, out of school by 1pm, at work by 3pm and home by midnight...I finally made the money I needed to pay my own rent! I paid off two months of my car insurance and two months of my electric bill.

I happily blew $160 at Wal-Mart and nearly came in my pants.

What a feeling to be able to walk through there again, carrying enough money that I knew that no matter what I purchased I'd have enough cash to cover it all!

I found that some old poor habbits die hard as I chose the generic shampoo over the name brand stuff...but then made up for it by buying luxery items too.

Since when did rippled double rolls of toilet paper and a new shade of lipstick become luxery items?

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I was talking to a friend of mine yesterday, who has been in touch with me throughout this whole ordeal.

I was telling her about how this whole experience changed something in me.

I've never been one to really care about money. In my lifetime it was something that was used against me. I learned to have a pretty detatched relationship with it. I either had some or I didn't. I've even gone hungry before...but never so hungry as this.

I told her that something broke in me recently. This relaxed and casual attitude about money...is gone. And I feel very much like Scarlett O'Hara when I say, "As god as my witness...I will never go hungry again."

And you'd better believe that I fucking mean it.

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But for now...I'm gonna finish my flavored coffee with milk and splenda...another luxery long forgotten...and get ready for school by putting on my fabulously clean and fresh uniform!!!