holliday

Maybe alone is beter.

Maybe I really am as tough as I thought I was?

Maybe I really don't need anyone.

Maybe I'm better off without the distraction of other people?

Waiting for phone calls.

Text messages.

Letters.

Anything.

Maybe it's better that I don't rely on others for support.

Or comfort.

Better to imagine I'm all alone out here than to believe I have people...

Only to find I don't.

Maybe I'd be better off not deluding myself into thinking you're here for me?

Maybe I'd be better off cutting ALL of you off entirely...

No messy strings left attached.

Here all these years I'd convinced myself that while I believed it..it was some kind of maladjusted illusion...that I was alone.

maybe it's time i got real?