Login
Forgot Password?

OR

Login with Google Login with Twitter Login with Facebook
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • SuicideGirls
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
Vital Stats

holliday

Member Since 2004

Followers 93 Following 133

  • Everything
  • Photos
  • Video
  • Blogs
  • Groups
  • From Others

Thursday Jun 15, 2006

Jun 15, 2006
0
  • Facebook
  • Tweet
  • Email
AN OPEN LETTER TO THE HATERS....you know you who are...


It must be exhausting to be you.

To walk around so filled with hate and resentment...and that deep seated belief that the world owes you for all you've been through.

This somehow making you feel it's your right to judge and blame.

I know how exhausting it is to live like that...because that used to be me.

You asked me how it is my hindsight can be so rosey?

It's not because I don't remember the bad times...so many of them shared side by side with you.

It's just that I finally realized, our lives are built with our own two hands.

We have a choice, what we take with us. And I'm choosing the roses.

Why, you asked?

Because roses warm my heart. Because in the end the roses are worth more to me than the thorns.

Living through Houston was the hardest year of my life.
How is it then, that only six months gone I can turn around and see roses there too?

Because it was in my darkest hours that I found love and friendship that touched me so deeply it changed who I am as a person.

And that's just how life goes sometimes.

I'd rather remember Houston for the miraculous five flakes of snow on Christmas than for all the nights I cried myself to sleep because I was too stressed, too scared, too lonely, too hungry, and just too fucking exhausted to go on.

I'd rather remember Houston for the kind hearted fellow students who were ALSO starving...who made a point to donate food to ME, than remember it for my actual hunger.

It was in my darkest hour that I found I had the strength and determination to do whatever it took to make this dream come true. Forced to make a choice...I made one.

Don't judge me for the choice...celebrate with me, the strength and the determination it took to make it.

I don't live my life with regret.
If I made the choice, there must have been a reason.
If you can't trust that, than you don't know me.

I've lived a blessed life...
Not because it's been easy.
Not because it's even been happy.
But because it's a life I've lived with integrity, love, loyalty, and friendship.
Because I never forget where I come from...but I don't let it weigh me down.

But mostly because, it's not only a life I can look back on and be proud of...it's also a life I can look back on, and be inspired by. To be inspired by ones own life is truly a blessing. You can hate me for that...but I'll always remember you with roses.

---------------{@
VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
guitargeek:
All I said was that you should enjoy your time in California before the drama sets in, and you accused me of being some kind of doomsayer. Everything is cool when you're brand new in a place, during the honeymoon phase.

That doesn't make me a hater, and I don't think I deserve the cold shoulder from you.

That's all.
Jun 20, 2006
holliday:
Oh guitargeek, you only wish you were important enough to warrant a journal entry...
Jun 20, 2006

More Blogs

  • 07.28.07
    6

    Sunday Jul 29, 2007

    Well, it's been a week and I still love my husband. There isn't m…
  • 07.23.07
    14

    Monday Jul 23, 2007

    Read More
  • 07.20.07
    13

    Friday Jul 20, 2007

    Yesterday would have been my Daddy's 72nd birthday...that is, if he h…
  • 07.04.07
    14

    Wednesday Jul 04, 2007

    Saturday morning...not nearly as early as we had hoped to be out the …
  • 04.22.07
    4

    Sunday Apr 22, 2007

    There are some friends who...if you don't see for month or so, things…
  • 03.14.07
    3

    Wednesday Mar 14, 2007

    The weather is beautiful out here in the desert... 80 degrees...not …
  • 02.19.07
    11

    Monday Feb 19, 2007

    WELCOME BACK RACE FANS!!! After spending a fine day modeling Satur…
  • 02.15.07
    6

    Thursday Feb 15, 2007

    What do you think it means when the doctor calls, says he has the tes…
  • 02.14.07
    0

    Wednesday Feb 14, 2007

    The best valentine's day I ever had was spent curled up to a bottle o…
  • 01.23.07
    9

    Tuesday Jan 23, 2007

    WELCOME RACE FANS!!! This past Saturday I pulled my sorry ass out of…

We at SuicideGirls have been celebrating alternative pin-up girls for:

24
years
10
months
24
days
  • 5,509,826 fans
  • 41,393 fans
  • 10,327,617 followers
  • 4,689 SuicideGirls
  • 1,113,818 followers
  • 15,128,200 photos
  • 321,315 followers
  • 61,844,310 comments
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
  • Help
  • About
  • Press
  • LIVE

Legal/Tos | DMCA | Privacy Policy | 18 U.S.C. 2257 Record-Keeping Requirements Compliance Statement | Complaint / Content Removal Policy | Contact Us | Vendo Payment Support
©SuicideGirls 2001-2026

Press enter to search
Fast Hi-res

Click here to join & see it all...

Crop your photo