I hate California.
I mean, it's true...the Pacific is beautiful.
I can buy my liquor at the grocery store.
This place...I dunno...seems to have so much promise.
Seems to have everything I might need to make things work.
And yet, they don't.
***
Every weekend I just lay around in my bed.
The weather yesterday was so beautiful, I wanted to go DO something. But alass...there's nothing. So I just got back into bed.
Last weekend I was so bored I actually went in to work!
***
I say that I need to get out and meet people...but looking around at the people here...I can honestly say, I don't want SHIT to do with them.
Not with these mercedes driving hippies and smoked out surfer college students. No...I can honestly say I don't want to meet these people.
***
So...I try to reach out...send emails to some people with similar interests...car clubs...ask what's going on in these parts.
And I get no response.
***
I hate to live my life with regrets...but right now I'm really wishing I'd taken that job with mercedes in NYC. And the truth is, I WOULD have, if I'd known at the time the shop was going to remain in the city and not be built out in north jersey.
***
Well, I have 9 months left on my contract with mercedes.
After that, I can do anything I want.
Run off into the hills...
Run back into a city somewhere...
***
I suppose this little shit town of Marina would be perfect if I had someone special to keep my occupied.
But alass...it's not the case and it never will be...
So I'm stuck here in the twilight zone between socal and norcal. Wishing I had the money to fly my ass home for a weekend to remind myself what it's like to have friends...
But instead...I'm off to do laundry...it's my very exciting plan for the week.
EDITED TO ADD:
Ok...I'm gonna keep pushing for Cali. I've got two events on my schedule which will involve leaving the house...
One is SG PROM. Which should be awesome, since I didn't get to go to my prom in high school. Or any other dance for that matter. Of course, I'll be going stag and I won't know anyone.
I mean, it's true...the Pacific is beautiful.
I can buy my liquor at the grocery store.
This place...I dunno...seems to have so much promise.
Seems to have everything I might need to make things work.
And yet, they don't.
***
Every weekend I just lay around in my bed.
The weather yesterday was so beautiful, I wanted to go DO something. But alass...there's nothing. So I just got back into bed.
Last weekend I was so bored I actually went in to work!
***
I say that I need to get out and meet people...but looking around at the people here...I can honestly say, I don't want SHIT to do with them.
Not with these mercedes driving hippies and smoked out surfer college students. No...I can honestly say I don't want to meet these people.
***
So...I try to reach out...send emails to some people with similar interests...car clubs...ask what's going on in these parts.
And I get no response.
***
I hate to live my life with regrets...but right now I'm really wishing I'd taken that job with mercedes in NYC. And the truth is, I WOULD have, if I'd known at the time the shop was going to remain in the city and not be built out in north jersey.
***
Well, I have 9 months left on my contract with mercedes.
After that, I can do anything I want.
Run off into the hills...
Run back into a city somewhere...
***
I suppose this little shit town of Marina would be perfect if I had someone special to keep my occupied.
But alass...it's not the case and it never will be...
So I'm stuck here in the twilight zone between socal and norcal. Wishing I had the money to fly my ass home for a weekend to remind myself what it's like to have friends...
But instead...I'm off to do laundry...it's my very exciting plan for the week.
EDITED TO ADD:
Ok...I'm gonna keep pushing for Cali. I've got two events on my schedule which will involve leaving the house...
One is SG PROM. Which should be awesome, since I didn't get to go to my prom in high school. Or any other dance for that matter. Of course, I'll be going stag and I won't know anyone.
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I can't wait to meet ya