holliday

The fog rolls in and out of this place so quickly...
One minute I'm relaxing with the stars...and the next minute I can't see my neighbors house.

I could complain...but it matches my mood so much these days I can't find grounds for complaint.

One minute I'm relaxing with my happy thoughts...the next I'm lonely and sad...crying alone in my room.

Some would say it's because of the holidays and my impending birthday...which if you know anything about me, you know I hate my birthday.

I might say that it has something to do with letting go of all the trauma of this past year.

Either way...I'm still left here wondering...what happens to the rest of us? Those of us too mean, ugly, fat, or guarded... Those of us who just aren't destined to find that special someone? Who never get married...never have kids...

It didn't used to both me quite so much because I always had my friends around.

But now my friends are all married with babies, or at least coupled up...

They used to love me so much...but now they have lives of their own.

What becomes of the rest of us?

I can tell you what will become of me today...at least...
With no family to speak of...and no friends within a seven hour driving radius...

I'm celebrating xmas, even though I don't celebrate this holiday...Jew style...even though I'm not Jewish...

For those of you who don't know? That means movie and chinese food.

I'll top it off with some soy nog and spiced rum...maybe I'll update again once I get REALLY depressed and drunk...cuz i"m sure you're all just DYING to read THAT nonesense...