holliday

So I haven't had a drink in two days.

I decided to be responsible and go to the doctor about my lil' ol' bladder infection...found out that's all it was (thank goodness)...and ended up on medication for a week...

And while I'm glad that it's just a bladder infection and not something a whole lot less fun...this sucks.

True...true...I am fully aware that over this past year I've been drinking too much...and it's true that one of the reasons I look forward to moving to Cali is to finally be back in the real world where I won't feel the need to drink quite so much...

But, uh...yeah...

Whiskey at night has become as much a habit as coffee in the morning.

Not that I can't live without it...I just hardly remember how.

I can't remember the last time I was sober for two days in a row.

It helps to pass the time, it helps me forget I'm here, and it helps me sleep.

Without whiskey, and not allowed to smoke pot (drug testing), I rely on sleeping pills to get me into dream land.

Sitting around at my house without drinking isn't the big deal...it's work I can't imagine without the drink.

How can I work without drinking? With everyone else getting higher than a kite?

I guess I'll just have to find a way...

Let me just remember it's 11am on a Saturday morning and for once I'm not hung over. What a blessing...

Now what to do with the blessing?