Why are ruts so easy to fall into and so hard to get out of?
I was SO looking forward to getting out of school because with my daytime hours free I'd have time to actually do stuff.
All the stuff that I've been forced to neglect over the past months...laundry, basic house cleaning, working on my car...and being able to go out and have some kind of social life. I also planned on working longer hours to make as much money as I possibly can before my time is up.
But in the past 20 days or so I've accomplished very little.
True...I've been going out for some fun a little more...and that helps...
I haven't been going into work earlier, but I've been staying later...
Which means I get up later and later every day...until I'm waking up at the same time of day I'd have been coming home from school...essentially locking myself back into the same hours I was living in before.
I haven't done laundry...
I haven't cleaned my house...
In fact, for a second there I was so lazy I let myself run out of food...
I've spent some of this free time in deep thought and meditation which has helped me A LOT...and in the long term will pay off...but certainly doesn't get me to clean the litter box...
I'm not gonna beat myself up though...after all those long, long months...maybe sitting around on my fat ass for a little while is exactly what I needed to do to save my sanity...
Tonight...I'm staying home from work...and cancelling a drink date with a friend at the bar so I can stay home and actually get some sleep (and watch the game...GO ASTROS!!!)...
All so tomorrow morning I will not wake up hung over, curled up in this here armchair and totally unmotivated to do anything.
No...tomorrow I'm going to actually do something...because seriously...if I don't show up for my own life...who will?
I was SO looking forward to getting out of school because with my daytime hours free I'd have time to actually do stuff.
All the stuff that I've been forced to neglect over the past months...laundry, basic house cleaning, working on my car...and being able to go out and have some kind of social life. I also planned on working longer hours to make as much money as I possibly can before my time is up.
But in the past 20 days or so I've accomplished very little.
True...I've been going out for some fun a little more...and that helps...
I haven't been going into work earlier, but I've been staying later...
Which means I get up later and later every day...until I'm waking up at the same time of day I'd have been coming home from school...essentially locking myself back into the same hours I was living in before.
I haven't done laundry...
I haven't cleaned my house...
In fact, for a second there I was so lazy I let myself run out of food...
I've spent some of this free time in deep thought and meditation which has helped me A LOT...and in the long term will pay off...but certainly doesn't get me to clean the litter box...
I'm not gonna beat myself up though...after all those long, long months...maybe sitting around on my fat ass for a little while is exactly what I needed to do to save my sanity...
Tonight...I'm staying home from work...and cancelling a drink date with a friend at the bar so I can stay home and actually get some sleep (and watch the game...GO ASTROS!!!)...
All so tomorrow morning I will not wake up hung over, curled up in this here armchair and totally unmotivated to do anything.
No...tomorrow I'm going to actually do something...because seriously...if I don't show up for my own life...who will?
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spadez:
Cars are worse than girlfriends... especially mine, I got one nagging at me that it needs rust removal badly and the other is jealous (appearently) of the other and would rather I didn't drive her after I rode all over town in the Buick. So she sucks the cash out of my pockets and while the other gripes for more heavy petting with a wire wheel and some hot hot torch action.
gallas13:
apathy, like nostalgia, is poison. write down a list of shit to do and take care of business girl.