It's the Summer of 2008. Some friends had mentioned a site called SuicideGirls in a conversation previously and suggested I have a look. I have just shot myself a set. It took hours to shoot and edit my self shot photographs but I was pleased with the outcome. It showed my silly personality and I am about to upload it to go into member review.
It's August 16th and I am anxiously watching comments pour in now my set is viewable to members. Nerves are racing through me as I watch the positive feedback and I smile.
Less than two weeks later my set was on the FP and I was a SuicideGirl. My posts were in pink and I felt proud for so many reasons.
That isn't the proudest moment though. Nor is the next five sets of mine hitting the FP too. But right now. This very moment.
This weekend saw another SG event and has inspired blogs from two of my best friends that I've made through this site (@lucerne and @galda). It hit me reading these that my life wouldn't be the same if I hadn't sent those photos in all those years ago.
You can say that about any decision you have made but it's hard to imagine my life without that decision.
My best friends are from this website. We have a little name for ourselves (go SmutGang!) that has just happened from hanging out and becoming 'real life' friends. Some of my favourite times and experiences have been with these friends like Weddings, book signings and meet n greets, sleepovers and shoots, nights out, the following breakfasts at favourite spots and daily chats with these people that are the most supportive group of people you could ask for. I wouldn't have met my lovely BF through one of these best friends either which leads onto more great times.
Basically my life would be completely different and I wouldn't even like to think of the alternative without this site.
This sounds mushy but it's true. It's not just about the photos. The photos to me now are secondary. It's about the real life experiences this site has to offer if you dive in and embrace it.
Here's to many more, and if you read this and are wondering whether to join....do it, without a moments doubt.
Holley xox
