holland's SuicideGirls Blog

i wish id just stayed in his bed all day today

i want to start all over again

This is a more cheerful journal entry.

Aug 3, 2004

i think im gonna apprenticeship as a piercest. When ever someone has a problem or question with piercings they always come to me and i always have the answer (or i go to the piercing group here and find the answer there)
I am really excited, it seems like a good job for me. I am super conphy with people, and their occwardnesses and such....
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uph, ive started a new job and it is making me a zombie. i never want to do anything and i hate everything
i cried myself to sleep last nite, its hating me again

quasievil01:

Here's some

sweety I hope your feeling better. Mssg. if you need someone to talk to.

Jul 30, 2004

A - Age: 19
B - Band: Stray Cats, they make me so happy
C - Choice Of Meat: meat taste like Yucky
D - Dream Date: Going to a park late at night. I love swings, and stars. And i love seeing the child and adventure in a man
E - Excites You: making plans to go out for the weekend
F - Favorite...
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quasievil01:

Well now we know everything about you.

L - Love: is nothing but a fairy tale in a Disney movie

Don't be so quick to give up there, missy. You're only 19. Trust me on this, love is real, and you'll know it for sure when you find it.

Jul 24, 2004

echodyne:

Oi , quasievil knows what hes talking about.

Yes , vaya on vinyl should make anyone who gets it very very happy. I love your pics too.

Jul 25, 2004

A - Age: 19
B - Band: Stray Cats, they make me so happy
C - Choice Of Meat: meat taste like Yucky
D - Dream Date: Going to a park late at night. I love swings, and stars. And i love seeing the child and adventure in a man
E - Excites You: making plans to go out for the weekend
F - Favorite...
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maritins are amazing

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cruelty:

Hey, I read your post about your Chris situation. I went through something like this my last year of high school when I was really close with a girl named Heidi. We were like inseperable friends in high school, and some more-than friends things happened between us on occasion. I was madly in love with her, but I was afraid to say anything for fear of possibly ruining a good thing. Wow, was I stupid. I went over to her house one morning and found her other "friend" Sean's car in her driveway. It seemed he had spent the night. And there was something really going on. I was devistated. It was the worst psychological torture I had been through up to that point. When I broke down and told her my feelings, she was shocked and all she could say was "Why didn't you say something earlier? Things would be a lot different." I was crushed. You think I would have learned my lesson, but this has happened to me twice since then. I guess I'm just saying you have everything to gain and nothing to lose by confronting him. If he doesn't want a relationship with you, fine. Of course it will hurt, but at least you had the strength to be pro-active, and you'll know. If you just let him slip away, it could hurt a lot more.

BTW - this is really really cheezy, but a professor/friend of mine in college gave me a book to read called "In the Meantime." If you come across it you should check it out. Yeah, I hate that shit too, but it's really good.

Good luck!

Jul 18, 2004

mr_ruckus:

Yes they do!
I had a chocolate martini on a date and loved it!

Jul 19, 2004

God hates Edmonton
but he likes me! at least thats what a lot of people told me this weekend

Today in the city of champions it rained so bad and distroyed alot of things. I went to the Flea Market (and purchesed the 25th addition of Playboy) and when i left it was POORING, so we went out anyways and began to drive, we went...
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filmme:

*hugs*

you are gorgeous.

I went from 280-290 to 185 in a little less than two years.

Keep at it girlll you will get to where you wnat to be.

but youre hot as hell right now anyways.

Jul 14, 2004

newark:

nice glasses

Jul 14, 2004

should i be upset?
should i be mad
you ruined something for me
that i never really had

i saw the most AMAZING light show last night, we were driving down the highway at one am last nite, and lightning was just jumping all over the sky, it wasnt in one directions it was all over, until around two itd stoped and in this little...
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codeboy2:

i saw that too... today was weird... the clouds were soooo low and doing weird things... circling around each other. I was positive we were gonna get a big twister.

Hope this weird weather moves on soon.

Jul 11, 2004

so i went to buy a ticket for the show tomorrow, sold out
but its ok billy will give me his ticket, i feel horrible tho, that kid gives me too much

im too drunk
Chris went to TO today. i kinda miss him NO ASHA! no thinkie of Chris ... i get to go with him to pick him up from the air port...
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dire_romantic:

yowza!! you missed the advance ticket sales!!?! that bites!

granted, tix at the door are just 3 bucks more (14 vs 17), but that's three bucks that could be going to something more useful...like alcomahol

cyaz there!

Jul 8, 2004

quasievil01:

It was all crazy there last night, nice to meet you. The show was fantastic, too bad it started so late, we had to bolt as soon as it ended. I would have liked to spend a little more time meeting people. We wouldn't have even got in if we hadn't run into Aya, she zoomed us right to the front of the line. I think it was fate.