holland

i was tryin to avoid geting too personal on here anymore becasue i dont know how much longer i have, but i have to vent!

so this guy im seeing, last weekend we had a bad night because someone told me he has a gf, so i confrounted him and he denyed it and attempted so hard to keep me around. So on Sat we were at the bar and he was being weird, the normal no PDA but still a little harsher. So I was upset, than this girl sat next to him and started flirting with him and he was ignoring me. i was so sad. Than when we were leaving she told me he said he didnt want to be with me and i just couldnt get it through my head, so when he went to her house (we were all supposed to but we went back to the hotel) i couldnt sleep at all. Than the manager let me into his hotel room, so i slept in the bed and when he got home i confronted him. He told me she asked if he was single and he said yes, and i shouldnt believe her because i didnt know her -like i shouldnt believe jess because she took the story the wrong way- and we talked and he told me he really liked me and that he wouldnt keep me around if he didnt want me around. Than we talked some more about relationships and than we went to bed.

Who do i believe? as far as im concerned im not seeing him anymore, if he wants me around he'll make sure i see him. but i mean should i keep trying? because i told him i wasnt trying if there wasnt a reason, and that if he wanted me to go away it was on the table and he could tell me right then and there, but he wouldnt. We've been seeing eachother since may long and decided to take it slow, would it be too much if this weekend i made him choose between me and being single. And should i even try it if i dont know if i can trust him? I know i should go away, its the smart and safe thing, but i mean than ill never know if he planed to be with me. I hate this crap