so i am havin huge emotional issues and they need to go away. im not being my happy go lucky talkitive self since i began having these problems. I dont trust anyone, i dont believe anyone.
example one: i am convinced that my best friend hates having serious conversations, im convinced that when i talk about myself people just dont want to hear it and i hate it because i listen to everyone else! but i have no one to vent to or talk to because whenever we talk about important things to me she critisizes me and changes the subject.
Example two: I really like this guy, and he liked me too, but now im not so sure because before me he loved my other friend (whom i met him through) but she has a long term boyfriend. Problem? shes a fuckin huge flirt and basically since i told her i liked him shes touching his lap more and using her 'i love you' card and now im convinced im the last thing on her mind. worst part is i think she knows this is all happening but doesnt care because she wants the attention. This happened with another guy she was gonna set me up with and than all of a suddden she was always touching him again and he fell right in love with her again, but she has a BOYFRIEND. NOW REMEMBER: i have no evidence besides my own thoughts hence the 'i dont trust anyone' route. What is wrong with me? why cant i just have a friend who likes to hang out with me because im fun, and talk to and doesnt try to take my men (this is a reoccuring situation boys and girls!)
I also am convinced that i am annoying her and that she doesnte ver want me at her house. WHAT IS GOING ON.
its like i have two persons to me, the one that thinks this way. I have no friends, and all the guys i like fall out of like, and being to fall for all my friends. And than theres the other me, the one that knows all of this isnt important and that i am ok who i am, and that no one will ever like someone so self abusive and just enjoy other things i cant seem to listen to the rational one, i get sad, mean to myself and nervious aroud people and stop talking
what do i do
example one: i am convinced that my best friend hates having serious conversations, im convinced that when i talk about myself people just dont want to hear it and i hate it because i listen to everyone else! but i have no one to vent to or talk to because whenever we talk about important things to me she critisizes me and changes the subject.
Example two: I really like this guy, and he liked me too, but now im not so sure because before me he loved my other friend (whom i met him through) but she has a long term boyfriend. Problem? shes a fuckin huge flirt and basically since i told her i liked him shes touching his lap more and using her 'i love you' card and now im convinced im the last thing on her mind. worst part is i think she knows this is all happening but doesnt care because she wants the attention. This happened with another guy she was gonna set me up with and than all of a suddden she was always touching him again and he fell right in love with her again, but she has a BOYFRIEND. NOW REMEMBER: i have no evidence besides my own thoughts hence the 'i dont trust anyone' route. What is wrong with me? why cant i just have a friend who likes to hang out with me because im fun, and talk to and doesnt try to take my men (this is a reoccuring situation boys and girls!)
I also am convinced that i am annoying her and that she doesnte ver want me at her house. WHAT IS GOING ON.
its like i have two persons to me, the one that thinks this way. I have no friends, and all the guys i like fall out of like, and being to fall for all my friends. And than theres the other me, the one that knows all of this isnt important and that i am ok who i am, and that no one will ever like someone so self abusive and just enjoy other things i cant seem to listen to the rational one, i get sad, mean to myself and nervious aroud people and stop talking
what do i do