holdena

I stayed up till 1:30 am talking to her... we hadn't done that in a very long time... and.. I realized how much she loves me and likes me.... she is the only thing that could, and has, make me think twice about leaving.

And I realized the catholic church pounded warship into me too much... once I left it, and all religion behind, I still had that habit of worshiping. I realized that I never broke it: I worship my Lovers... in my own special way. Women are godesses, and they deserve teh best.

People deserve teh best... I really wish all of you knew how lucky you are to be given this chance here.... how unique and special you are. but I think most of you people don't realize, or don't want to. Just like you can't stand to know your in love, you have to let yourself realize it over time. Thats all falling in Love is, acepting what you know inside the first time you get a real look in someone's eyes. Maybe its just American's... but it really does seem that for someone reason people don't belive they can deal with the emotion of love so emidiatly... if only people would realize how much time they are waisting.. just love someone, stop falling.. just look them in the eye and say it.


And never expect it back. When you do, its like your pointing a gun at their head. What choice do you have other than saying it back?