holdena

My partner for the last five months or so, whose two year old kid I have watched almost every other night for the last two months, is most likely going to tell me she dosn't want to see me any more tonight at nine...

She was everything I always wanted, all the things I told people I wanted, all the things I never said but my ex-lovers knew I wanted and felt like they were not enough because of, and even all the things I didn't even want to admit... Everyhting right down to her amazing little daughter...


And I guess it just hurts, be there for someoen through their break up of a relationship that lasted two years, helping them move out, being there while they went through a very painful abortion, through family problems and the most stressful college finals of their life...

I was there whenever she needed me, and she made me so happy... and I hope tonight if it is good bye she at least tells me why...