hockeyjunkie

I'm massively bored right now. I don't have enough motivation to do any reading or homework. I don't even have the energy to read anything I WANT to read. Hell, I barely have the energy to sit here and type this.

My new camera should be here in just a few days. Woo-hoo!

Ciao

I try so hard to be anyone else but me.
But how can that be?
I'm not even quite sure who I am yet.
When others describe me, words like 'unique' and 'different' are used so frequently.
I can't tell if it's good or bad.
Or if I even care.
I want to be the one he fell in love with,
But I'm not quite...
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I bought the latest MAD magazine. I thought for a minute about applying for their summer internship, but I'm too chicken to actually do anything like that.

So in a little while I'll have pictures of Joshua up. And probably one of the both of us. Jamie took pictures when we first arrived in Vegas and I jumped on top of Joshua. And I have...
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Isn't it a little weird when your boyfriend's step-father starts talking about the two of you getting married; and then his grandmother starts talking about you having babies? Look at the birthday. I'm 20--Joshua's 19. Yes, we have talked about it extensively, but never to adults. Especially ones related to us.

Damn that was weird.

Oh, and he may be moving here as early as...
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Woo-hoo! I leave tomorrow after ecopsych with Jamie and Adam.

So I'll be gone for the weekend.

Oh, and I cut my hair a little bit. I have bangs! I haven't had bangs in forever. I'm still trying to get used to the change in my look. Plus, my hair is way white blonde.

I love it!

Peace, love and chicken grease.

Ciao!

I can survive two more days. I've had to wait a month in between every time I've seen Joshua. I can do two more days. It's weird to think that we've been together for three months...and we've only seen each other about three times...yeah...three times.

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the photograph

Sifting through photographs of years past
a stubborn one drops to the floor, attempting escape
from its...
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does anyone else remember when students actually had respect for professors?

i hate people at this school.
especially the ones that think they know more than a professor who has a master's. hello? you don't even have a bachelor's yet. they've been studying this shit 400 years longer than you. grow up.

quit having dick-measuring contests with your damn professors.

I remember when LifeSavers had a little red pull tab, kind of like my cig packs have now.

I can't get this LifeSaver pack open without demolishing the entire package.

What the hell....?

Friday is sneaking up on me. I can't wait. Jamie, Adam and I won't be able to leave until about 3, but that means we'll get to Vegas just about the time Joshua gets off of work. So that works out pretty good. Adam has a class until 1 and Jamie has an appointment to look at an apartment in Reno at 2.

I finally...
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I've noticed qualities in myself that I have previously despised in others. I am the annoying girlfriend.

I hate when he has to get off the phone to hang out with his friends...because we barely talk anymore.

I put myself down while talking to him...for really no reason.

I whine about nothing.

I say "I miss you more" or "I love you more"... like it...
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