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I miss Joshua.

I'm going into Reno after work to shop with Jamie for a while.

Why does four days seem like so long?

Ciao

I'm not allowed to watch sappy movies by myself.

I just watched "Win a Date with Tad Hamilton." I actually thought it was really cute, but now I miss Joshua even more! I know I only have like four and a half days left, but it's hard. I hate watching people in love when I don't get to be with mine.

It's like when I...
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1. a week from today, Joshua will be here

2. my new digital camera arrived today

3. i found a cute outfit to wear to the formal...and it goes great with my combat boots

4. i made a new friend last night and got to talk to him until all hours (hello!)

...And I am in one of the best moods today. There's no particular...
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So this is how I look with bangs. I'd forgotten.

I played with my webcam a little and put those pictures up. REALLY bad lighting. Just wait until I get my dig. camera. Oh, and when I have pics from the formal...me and Joshua will be so cute

There are some hot-ass chicks on this site! Damn girls. That's all I have to say: damn....
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So the college holds this Spring Formal prom-type of thing. It's next Friday. And guess what?

I just found out that Joshua can be here for it!

Yay!!!!

Ciao

In one of our wacky conversations, Jamie decided that my first child will be born on August 1, 2007. If (s)he comes anytime around that date...well...that'd be weird.

Keep your calendar open. Spring 2006 is the tentative wedding date. (ok, that was a joke...)

nevermind

weird mood today
i actually finally cleaned my room. It wasn't dirty, just messy. I just had paper and clothes...
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I'm massively bored right now. I don't have enough motivation to do any reading or homework. I don't even have the energy to read anything I WANT to read. Hell, I barely have the energy to sit here and type this.

My new camera should be here in just a few days. Woo-hoo!

Ciao

I try so hard to be anyone else but me.
But how can that be?
I'm not even quite sure who I am yet.
When others describe me, words like 'unique' and 'different' are used so frequently.
I can't tell if it's good or bad.
Or if I even care.
I want to be the one he fell in love with,
But I'm not quite...
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I bought the latest MAD magazine. I thought for a minute about applying for their summer internship, but I'm too chicken to actually do anything like that.

So in a little while I'll have pictures of Joshua up. And probably one of the both of us. Jamie took pictures when we first arrived in Vegas and I jumped on top of Joshua. And I have...
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Isn't it a little weird when your boyfriend's step-father starts talking about the two of you getting married; and then his grandmother starts talking about you having babies? Look at the birthday. I'm 20--Joshua's 19. Yes, we have talked about it extensively, but never to adults. Especially ones related to us.

Damn that was weird.

Oh, and he may be moving here as early as...
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Woo-hoo! I leave tomorrow after ecopsych with Jamie and Adam.

So I'll be gone for the weekend.

Oh, and I cut my hair a little bit. I have bangs! I haven't had bangs in forever. I'm still trying to get used to the change in my look. Plus, my hair is way white blonde.

I love it!

Peace, love and chicken grease.

Ciao!

I can survive two more days. I've had to wait a month in between every time I've seen Joshua. I can do two more days. It's weird to think that we've been together for three months...and we've only seen each other about three times...yeah...three times.

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the photograph

Sifting through photographs of years past
a stubborn one drops to the floor, attempting escape
from its...
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